i wonder if everyday is a holiday

ni need a day off from work. . this week, the stressfulness has reached to its peak. fuhhhhh. i need a holiday. i need my best of the best partner here. to lift up my spirit.

i feel so lazy to go to work. to even iron my kurungs. to even wake up with one thing in my mind, i must go to school. sooo lazy to enter the class with almost the whole class forgot to finish up my homework. sooo lazy to get angry and shouted like pftttt. sooo lazy to walk and leave the red marks from crabby like pinch. they won't realise their mistakes. they ignored. they just closed their hearing sense to listen to my never ending babbling.

things get worst when i entered the last class. only one out of 30 finished my work. longgg sigh. i would simply say, if you would like to be a servant forever, you may continue to live happily with your current behaviours. i wouldn't mind at all. i sometimes felt so demotivated to enter their class. the only way to revise what they had learnt at school was by doing lot and lots of exercises.

tell me what i should do. slow talk..advice..rewards, canning, beat....done .  nothing change except me. i'm so closed to give up. no improvement. most of the weak pupils, they needed to learn from the basic. i mean at their own pace, but, i had 30 of them in a totally not conducive classroom. tell me how to approach one by one. to pay attention at one pupil at a time.

think twice before you fill up the teaching courses forms. you might probably end up being a housewife. how i wish coz i couldn't imagine myself in 30 years time. i might pass away due to stress which is caused by the  pupils' behaviours.

work hard, my man. i wanna quit my job tomorrow. hahahaha. dream oh dream! crayyy

day 12

alhamdulillah,

we're now in the second phase of Ramadhan. alhamdulillah. He grants us another breath to prepare ourselves for our next destination. what a cliché.. as time goes by, people are now in the midst preparing things to celebrate Syawal. we could see lots and lots of sale adverts here and there. mosques and prayer hall are no longer our fav place. people have started to plan for iftar at somewhere grand. buttt, that's not the way to celebrate this month.

i pray to Allah so he could protect me from the wonders of dunya. this is a month of ibadah. He has promised us that He 'll grant our prayers. this is a month of ibadah. this is a special month. the most awaited one.

what a waste if we use the limited time given to go shopping and do other things that we often do during other months.

with that,
mari gandakan amal ibadah!

cooking

assalamualaikum,

wow, it looked like my passion into typing had slowly gone.

ramadhan is here again. alhamdulillah, i'm blessed to be one of the pupils in this school again. this ramadhan, i celebrated in Johor. i greeted the first day of Ramadhan alone this time. my other housemates went back to their hometown leaving me alone.

i was so sad at first but the feeling slowly faded away. i took this as a training for me for a couple of years to come.

i bet most of us had already setour own plan for this Ramadhan. it would be a waste if we never took this opportunity to do something different to our timeline. Ramadhan is a month of blessing. personally, i really believe that this month will determine us for the coming 11 months. month of refreshment physically and spiritually.

and, this year is my first year of working while fasting. fuhhh, it might look easy but never for me. i deal with kids from 7a.m until 2p.m. i need to talk and teach and shout as usual. i need to re ell the same thing for sooo many times, as usual. that's so not easy. melepekla sampai rumah.

and, alhamdulillah, up until now, we are still cooking. no outside food allowed for iftar, moreh and sahur. i'm challenging myself not to visit bazar ramadhan at all for this year. i feel healthy eating homemade food. it might take a little time and energy to prepare iftar but it worth and of course, saving our monthly budget.

tarawih, there's no excuse for me to skip since i'm no longer a student. no assignment. i usually finished my work at school. home is where my bed is. so, no workloads allowed to enter my room sweet room. haha. let's see, sampai bilakah? but, we often rotate from one surau/ masjid to another. see, so many mosques around this small town. no excuses are allowed except the special break.

have a blessed ramadhan, peeps. let's aim for His blessings and mardhatillah.