1433H

salam

before i start,
i'm nearly forget to record this. i should congratulate my dear nephew for his great (WOW!!!) result in UPSR. 5As. alhamdulillah.congratulations mamat. you did it. we proud of you. you did it. you prove it. If abah is still here with us, he'll surely proud of you.

mamat is my first nephew. i rarely talk about him but we grow together. he's our star. he was born in 1998. a soft-hearted young man. we still kiss him though he has grown up to be a young man and no longer a child. we still hug him and he'll still cry every time he has to say good bye to us. me crying too. he reminds us to our late brother. our only brother. he went back to Allah when i was still in primary school due to the evil cancerous cells. we love him sooooooo much but Allah loves him more and we believe He'll take care of our brother much better than  what we could do for him. "to Allah we belong and to Him we shall return (2:156)" mamat grows up without a father since he was 2 years old and he was too small to understand what was actually happened to his dear father. hurm. i'll continue writing on this next time. i can't hold my tears. he's one in a million. our ustaz after my father. i still remember vividly the hard journey that he had to go through. from the first day he was diagnosed.....until his last breath. the day my father cried and that was my first time seeing my father crying. no one knew what i felt each time i saw my brother struggling to fight the pains that he had to go through. it's indescribable. there's no suitable words to describe it but i knew its hurt. my father. a strong father.our backbone. never gave up trying. full of courage.  for him, berusaha sehabis mungkin sebelum tawakkal.

i believe mamat will grow up to be as strong as his late father.iA..

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happy new year 1433H!!!
Salam Maal Hijrah
alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..kita masih diberi nikmat untuk bernafas, bekerja, melihat, berkata-kata, menulis dan segalanya. baik kan Allah.diberi lagi kepada kita tahun baru. diberi lagi peluang untuk menjadi kita yang baru jika kita yang lama masih leka. diberi lagi kepada kita untuk bertaubat jika kita yang lama pernah lalai terhadap suruhannya. baik kan Allah.

Semoga Awal Muharam ini menjadi titik perubahan kita ke arah menjadi mukmin yang lebih baik.

"bila sinar tahun baru menjelma, kita sayu kerana terasa tahun lalu meninggalkan kita yang masih bergelumang dengan dosa dan masih ada impian harapan yang masih belum menjadi kenyataan.rupa-rupanya kita masih berangan-angan dengan rahmat dan pengampunan daripada Allah serta kejayaan kita di dalam apa yang telah kita impikan tanpa kita berusaha dengan penuh kesungguhan"
(adaptasi daripada solusi isu no. 34)



may all our wishes, hopes and targets come true and dun forget to work for it!!!!









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semester break

salam,

scrolling up and down. clicking . staring. reading. gossiping. eating. watching. peeping. sleeping. praying. walking. cooking . doing laundry .gardening (sometimes) and our list goes on and on. full of relaxing activities. no tension. no rushing. everything is just relax and chill!!

what a boring list of activities but i'm happy.we're happy.clinging to each other. on-line marathon. my sister brings home her P1 wireless modem plus two extra broadbands. hoho. we decide to give a long rest to our television and concentrate on our lap top(s). me trying to hit my reading target. crawling to finish one. fuhh, i read only when i feel like doing so. well, too many free times. chilla..=)

its school holidays for school children and us too . once you choose to jump into this field, u can't run away from school holidays. a very very long holidays. a special break for teachers, students and me (teacher trainee). well, teacher trainees deserve this long and most awaited holidays too. they have to experience everything from marching to holiday-ing but sometimes, i cannot deny this 'boring' feeling rushing in my mind. i'll have to face this kinda long holiday for at least 30 years to come. hoho. excluding the previous school holidays. (6 years in primary+5 years in secondary+5 and a half years in teacher trainee college)..hoho.pleasure.

be grateful syahira!!!

i should stop here before this boring virusses spread its toxic words to everyone. enjoy ur holidays. plan your holidays. use it wisely. make it memorable.

till then.
bubbye.
salam..

kids and ICT

salam,

remember this
presenting Mr Adam the backhoe

istana hinggap 'KAMI'

 

i'm home

salam,

happy 'end of year'. its school holidays.yuuhuuu

i bet all parents out there are now on a critical state of thinking. having headache and all sorts of sicknesses related to 'thinking'. trying to sort out school holiday's plans/activities for their loved ones. vacation?extra classes for kids? (i should say this is not necessary for primary school children).pity them. give them some freedom to choose and let them enjoy their holidays to the fullest. its year end holiday. once in a year. say no to extra classes.

.... but yes to tahfiz classes. both share the same adjective 'classes' but their approaches are different. tahfiz, i think, is more relaxing and its good for kids development. a motivation. a drill. well, kids. their brains are still young and fresh for memorizing drill. its a bonus for them. why don't we utilize their bonus. get them closer to the Holy Quran. its parents responsibilities to bring them closer to al-Khaliq before its too late. plus, it will only take 20 days of your kid's holidays.

as far as i know and see, majority of huffaz are not only able to memorize the Holy Quran but they are also among the best students in schools. i wish i'm one of them. late does not mean 'let it be'. 

when i was in primary school, never at once i attended any extra classes during school holidays. my parents send us off to our home sweet home. our real home aka my tok's house. a placed called hometown. all my sisters were born there except for me and my younger sister. we both were born in hospital well, ICT changed everything from education to infrastructures. it was a place where we gathered and strengthened our relationship. i meant between my siblings and our cousins. me and parit could not be separated. i just didn't know why i'm in love to aquatic lives until now. i used to work like a labour. an unwanted useless labor. my work was; designing a fish trap. the location was very strategic and yucks. it was in the 'parit' (drain) next to my great-grandmother's house. naughty little kiddo. no one were there to capture our creative work. those days, having a camera was a nikmat coz no one could afford it. we didn't even have any phone. =). back to our school holiday's project, it was a succeed actually for kids like us when we finally managed to design one. a simple fish trap though there's no even a small fish was trapped by our 'trap'.=). that was 10 years ago. we had so much fun but now, no more school holidays.

 as we grow older. no more gathering for school holidays. well, everything has changed. married. having their own family. their own children. their own hometown. their own careers. soon, i'll join them up so what should i say. all i need to do is trying to adapt to it. =) well,  life is a cycle. you will still meet the same ending no matter how fast you run or how much you are trying to avoid it.  

read this,

How to develop your family ties with the Quran by Tasnim Nazeer

" it is important for every Muslim to utilise their time and make reading the Quran a daily and family activity, for indeed The Qur’an will testify for you or against you onThe Day of Judgment." (Tasnim Nazeer, 2011)

till we meet again,

enjoy your holidays,

have fun,

salam

=)

contoh nota kuliah yang menjadi pujaan..

fasa mengenal cinta

salam,

Oleh sebab hampir semua warga hostel dah pulang ke sarang, maka sunyilah.tinggalah nur ismail sorang-sorang. mari kita reflek kejadian, kisah, impian dan harapan yang telah dilaksanakan dan dicapai sepanjang 5 bulan ini.
Idea untuk reflek datang daripada blog cik husna yang menulis tentang expectation.mari saya sambung expectation saya. sesungguhnya expectation terhadap diri sendiri amatlah penting kerana ianya ibarat penunjuk arah merangkap indicator penggerak.

sungguh tinggi sebenarnya harapan saya untuk sem lepas.

1) ingin menyeimbangkan usrah dengan akademik. aktiviti luar dengan akademik.
 memang tersangatlah susah.pernah rebah.pernah kecewa. pernah cuba untuk melepaskan salah satu. waktu itu belum jatuh cinta. alhamdulillah, adanya sahabat, petunjuk dari Allah s.w.t. jika buntu maka berbaliklah kepada Dia. carilah syariatnya. yang mana yang perlu didahulukan (aulawiyyat). usrah atau akademik.jalan dakwah atau akademik.pilihlah? xmampu membuat pilihan. kuteguhkan hati untuk memilih keduanya. letih itu adat. dunia kan ladang bagi akhirat. keduanya perlu seimbang. keduanya penting tapi jalan dakwah juga penting. amatlah penting.bukan untuk manfaat kita sahaja malah yang lain.=)..tapi sebelum berfikir begitu, banyak juga kata-kata salah/ kata-kata penyedap hati yang keluar dari bibir ni. banyak juga air mata yang terkorban. mungkin banyak juga hati yang terguris. sekali dapat, akan kugenggam. jika ada yang menyentap dari belakang. akan kugandingkan seluruh tenagaku untuk pertahankannya. iA.

2)ingin cemerlang (mencapai pointer yang diinginkan)
ini sukar. kehidupan di maktab bukanlah seperti kehidupan di universiti. tugasan 'assignment' ibarat hujan. turun mencurah-curah. kelas yang teramatlah padat hingga ke petang. kalau teringin nak tahu suasana maktab. bolehla cuba mintak untuk stay di asrama sekolah menengah untuk sebulan. dikawal rapi tapi longgar sedikit dari kehidupan asrama. kelas sehingga ke petang. kelas ganti sampai ke malam. 'study week' yang tak pernah wujud. assignment yang sangat dan teramatlah banyak. fail ISL setebal 3 inci. bayangkan, setiap sem, wajib ada kurang lebih 6 fail. tapi semua itu adat kehidupan. kalau diceritakan semua ini kepada senior sem 8, mesti cebik bibir,ketawa terguling-guling. Mereka dah melalui fasa ke'skema'an semua ni. dah melalui pahit getir hidup demi segulung ijazah. masa untuk kami. harapan tinggi malangnya usaha yang diletakkan rendah. tak tally dengan usaha, manakan dapat hasil yang dinginkan. dapat hasil yang setara dengan usaha ajelah kan. gagal menyiapkan nota-nota kecil. tapi buat waktu 'masa kritikal'..=) gagal mengulang kaji secara sistematik. gagal menyiapkan fail dalam masa yang ditetapkan. tapi alhamdulillah, semua dah settle dengan mata panda. ini kejadian biasa di sini. tapi untuk sem depan xnak lagi. ingin lebih serius. iA. tips untuk menyeimbangkan akademik dan aktiviti luar ialah jangan study di akhir-akhir 'waktu kritikal'. Selesaikan yang mustahak dan baru boleh ke kelas-kelas ilmu dengan happy. iA. doakan keputusan yang peperiksaan terbaik nanti di akhir bulan 12.

3) membaca
satu-satunya harapan yang tercapai. lebih daripada yang di inginkan.alhamdulillah. dalam masa 6 bulan berjaya menghabiskan 25 buah bahan bacaan tidak termasuk readers digest dan solusi. nikmat ilmu jangan disia siakan.=). semalam sebelum tidur, terfikir sesuatu..kalau dikumpulkan bahan bacaan yang telah dibaca (tolak yang kurang bermanfaat) dan bandingkan dengan air di lautan.bezanya xterungkap dengan kata. betapa ceteknya ilmu di dada. banyak lagi ilmu Allah yang perlu kita terokai.

"Bacalah (wahai Muhammad) dengan nama tuhanmu yang menciptakan  (sekalian makhluk), ia menciptakan manusia dari sebuku darah beku; Bacalah, dan tuhanmu yang Maha Pemurah, yang Maha Mengajar manusia melalui pena dan tulisan, ia mengajarkarkan apa yang tidak diketahuinya." (al-Alaq: 1-5)

jangan berpuas hati dengan apa yang didengari. carilah dan terus mencari!!!! membaca ialah titik perubahan. pernah terleka dengan kegilaan remaja 'drama korea'. tapi setelah jatuh cinta pada bahan bacaan. alhamdulillah. terhapus sedikit beban yang ditanggung dek kerana terlalu memuja kecantikan sementara dan terpegun dengan aurat manusia. terpesona dengan bait-bait cinta. mereka hidup dengan cinta. hilangnya cinta makan hilanglah mereka. hakikat mereka yang tidak beriman dengan Al-Quran dan sunnahNya. hakikat golongan yang fanatik kepada kehidupan dunia.

 ramai yang sedar hakikat ni tapi kenapa masih menjadikan artis-artis korea sebagai idol. drama-drama korea sebagai santapan harian menggantikan santapan rohani yang sepatutnya. tergila gilakan fesyen ala-ala kaum itu. rosak!!rosak!!

"Sesungguhnya Al-Quran ini memberi petunjuk kepada jalan yang lurus dan memberi berita gembira kepada orang mukmin yang menegrjakan amal soleh bahawa bagi mereka ada pahala yang besar." 

(Surah Al-Isra 17:9)

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w bermaksud: "Aku tinggalkan kamu dua perkara, kamu tidak akan sesat selama manakamu berpegang kepada kedua-duanya, iaitu kitab Allah  (Al-Quran) dan sunnahku."

 (Riwayat Abu Daud)

4) fasa mengenal cinta

mendapat usrah tidak seperti mengikuti usrah..bebannya terasa amat dan tersangatlah berat. senget bahu. kalau difikirka gitu-gitu memang terasa ringan tapi personally, mereka tanggungjawab saya. satu kesalahan mereka, kesalahan saya juga. mereka cerminan saya dan saya cerminan mereka. indahkan ukhuwah bersulam cinta!!

yang di atas adalah yang terpilih.. kalau nak direflek kan semua memerlukan kurang lebih seminggu..=).pengalaman mengajar erti kedewasaan. alhamdulillah, saya masih bernafas di muka bumi Allah ni dengan nikmat iman . matlamatnya taqwa. cepat kejar cepat. tak pernah lagi saya pengsan dek kerana terlalu rasa terbeban dengan masalah. tak pernah lagi datang rasa ingin melawat psikiatrist kerana kehidupan ini sentiasa indah. Allah xakan menduga makhluknya dengan sesuatu yang tidak mampu dihadapi oleh makhluknya. setiap masalah ada penyelesainnya.setiap kegembiraan ada sebabnya. berbaliklah kita untuk mentafsirkan kehidupan kita. ingin bawanya ke mana. ke kiri atau ke kanan. ke lembah kehinaan atau lembah kebaikan. jangan salahkan takdir jika kita salah memilih kerana hak untuk memilih ada di tangan kita. 

selamat bercuti!!!

jangan lupa mutabaah amal!!!hohoho!!!

salam.

sem 2 is officially over

salam,

18/11/2011
not a special date but it reminds me something. a fact that i'm no longer 20 but soon to be 21. going to enter my third year degree. i've been here for nearly 2 and a half years. whoever says nak jadi cikgu senang, u deserve my slap and ninja karate. at least its difficult to me.=).

ok,let pictures do the talking..

community service- games for year 6 students

raya feast. it should be my last.let's see whats gonna happen next year.

school based experience. soon to be teachers. 

keciknya tongkang

to be continued~

lesson plan

Salam,

mode:exam fever
Title: exam-oriented in our education system should be abolished
Aim: - to raise students awareness
Objective: By the end of this post, all readers should be able to

1) write a similar post like this
2) vomit all the weaknesses and negativeness of exam oriented edu system
3)sent a letter entitled "lets abolish exam oriented system" to MOE

Behavioral objective:

1) do whatever you want
2) don't bother the above objectives, aims and all sorts of rules and regulations.

a short plan of mine. i did this last four days after a very long hectic day. a sad day. what's done cannot be undone. sigh

semoga lesson plan yang tidak menjadi itu masih dalam kategori relevan.='(

mr backhoe/ helicopter/thomas

salam,
a talkative boy.
24 hours talking.
12 hours on you tube. i 've a picture of him browsing the internet but its in my phone.he's searching for his favourite videos in u-tube through laptop. its a shocked development.a rapid development. a 2 years old toddler browsing his favourite video through laptop. toddlers browsing their fav videos through ipad or whatever touchy little gadgets are not a big surprised to me but its a surprised when a 2 years old toddler is able to control his finger and click here and there. fuyyoo.

 he approaches me asking a few questions. "acik nak pinjam ipad catir (shakir, his cousin akak my other nephew)". pandai. let him watch his fav videos through my big fat lappy. i said to him, "buat macam ni tau kalau nak tukar while showing the way i do to him.

physically, he looks matured at his age but not as matured as me of course.
he's not yet 3.well, kids at this modern age. gadjets are just like their twin brothers. best friend. they just need a few hours or even a few days to master it.

i couldn't remember my toddler time. the only thing that i still remembered was "gonggong botol susu sampai 6 tahun+main tangkap ikan+aci ligan+main masak-masak+main mak2+main gheja2". the only technology we had was television, radio and washing machine. there's no refgiretor in my house. not even any telephone or cell phone.

In 18 years time, lots of changes have happened. from a bulky cell phone to a finger-sized cell phone. from a giant laptop to a no-weight laptop.

in 18 years to come, what will happen to technology as well as to us?



malangnya,
perkembangan teknologi tidak seiring dengan akhlak manusia.
semakin hebat teknologi,
semakin kecundang manusia,
moga darah dagingku tidak tergolong dalam golongan yang rugi

sempat lagi =)

 salam,
proudly announcing, exam starts tomorrow.

non stop reading. i hate but i have to. i feel like something stacks in my veins. lack of oxygen turns me sleepy. lots of words to digest turns my stomach grieving. finish a chapter, my cute fingers will automatically do their job. flipping over the next pages and counting the left pages. the left cerebral hemisphere in my brain starts to channel the bored signal. pheww. i have no choice. pity my brain. it needs some sleep and rest and that's why i'm here writing something 'crap' here. rest means blogging. its a new definition for 'rest' from a new dictionary of mine.

friends, do pray for me. minta maaf kalau ada keterlanjuran kata, tersalah bahasa, tersilap kata. i'm human. full of weaknesses and sometimes, i dun even realize my mistakes. do correct me. doakan semoga dipermudahkan semua.

bittaufiq wannajah semua,


 p/s: usaha tanpa doa dan tawakkal ibaratnya seperti menyemai benih di tanah tandus. manakan mahu ada buahnya jika tanpa baja dan air. dekatkan diri kepadaNya, semua isi dunia ini milik Dia. pintalah, pohonlah dengan penuh rasa rendah hati.

aidiladha 1431H

aidiladha 1431H

salam aidiladha from us, syahira and abam adam..

a post without a single picture is meaningless and xbest.really??

this year, we're celebrating aidiladha without our beloved opah aka mak, k.ya and k.da's family as always. no home to home visit. we cook rendang and nasi himpit as always. visiting tok in the afternoon. capturing raya moment with little adam. pity adam and kids at his age, no more hari raya like we had when we were all kids. i just can't imagine how suasana eid mubarak will turn to be in 10 years to come.

i miss my kids time. we celebrated hari raya full heartedly. we missed hari raya so much. up until now, i still could remember all the memorable memories. sometimes, i could feel it though it had passed. firecrackers time. berinai time. woke up early in the raya morning coz we had to line up for morning bath and if you woke up late, you will have to wait and you will get envy if you see others wearing their baju raya early than you. 

whatever it is, hari raya is still the best day ever though it is not as fun as yesterday..

eid-ul-adha

=)

salam,

kusangkakan panas hingga ke petang rupanya hujan di tengahari.

alhamdulillah.Allah mendengar rintihan hambanya yang sedang berduka lara ini. Perkongsian yang singkat tapi mampu meninggalkan kesan yang mendalam. Seolah-olah hilang segala tekanan dan bebanan. Berkongsi rasa dan duka. Bertukar pendapat. Menceduk ilmu. Kagum dengan perkara baru. Rapat dalam ukhuwah. terasa jauh daripada bebanan dunia sebentar. dunia yang penuh dengan perlumbaan. dunia yang penuh dengan ranjau dan dugaan. kehidupan.

dari terpaksa menjadi suka dan tiba-tiba jatuh cinta..
"mana boleh paksa, nanti jadi xikhlas" ayat penyedap hati dahulu kala. tak perlu pergi jauh, cukuplah diri ini untuk dijadikan contohnya. dahulu perkataan itu sering bermain di bibir dan benak fikiran. bila terhantuk baru tersedar" Ingat dahulu sewaktu kita kecil. Hari pertama di pintu tadika/taska, berjujuran air mata. Anak kecil mana yang suka dipaksa. Dipaksa untuk berjauhan dengan ibu bapa walau sebentar cuma. 3 jam je waktu persekolahan tadika. Namun, atas dasar "terpaksa" mengajar kanak-kanak erti rela, suka, gembira dan cinta. jika zaman sekolah menengah, terpaksa berjauhan dengan keluarga kerana asrama. bayangkan jauhnya Bukit Kayu Hitam. Jauh di ceruk desa. saat pulang ke asrama, berjujuran air mata. Hati bagai dihiris. Mulut tak mampu mengungkapkan kata. Kerana terpaksa direlakan jua. Lama kelamaan menjadi biasa. Makin jatuh cinta. Berat untuk meninggalkan asrama hatta jauh beratus kilometer dari keluarga. 'Terpaksa" itu mengajar banyak perkara. erti kedewasaan, berdikari dan sebagainya.

Bila meningkat dewasa. tiada pilihan, "terpaksa"menjadikan guru yang dahulunya dipandang sebelah mata sebagai kerjaya. Bukan lekeh namun dahulunya otak dipengaruhi oleh cita-cita. Meluap-lupa di benak pemikiran "Besar nanti, aku mahu menjadi doktor, pulangannya hebat tanbah glamour" itu dahulu, namun erti terpaksa mengajar erti sebenar kehidupan. Allah itu maha adil. Pasti ada sebab dan musababnya di atas segala sesuatu yang terjadi di muka bumi. Meninggalkan bumi matrikulasi dengan penuh perasaan terpaksa. Menangis, hati merintih..berat untuk meninggalkan daerah yang pernah menjadi tempat persinggahan menuntut ilmu walau sekejap cuma. Namun kerana terpaksa, dipaksa jua kaki melangkah. dikuatkan hati untuk terus melangkah. otak yang semakin dewasa ketika itu yakin bahawa ada hikmah atas setiap langkah yang terjadi.

Setahun pertama di maktab dengan penuh terpaksa, pernah diluahkan perasaan yang terpendam kepada sahabat seusia. betapa cita-citaku adalah untuk menjadi seorang doktor bukan pendidik. Ditanya kembali, kenapa tidak meneruskan langkah di bumi matrikulasi yang iA mampu mengorak langkahmu ke arah cita cita itu jika disertakan dengan usaha. Jawapanku mudah iaitu kerana terpaksa. Kerna terpaksa hati ini cuba untuk mencintai bidang yang diceburi saat ini dan alhamdulillah berjaya.

Dijalan yang kuanggap penuh duri ini juga permulaannya wujud fasa paksa. siapa suka, masa bersuka ria bersama rakan-rakan berkurang. fitrah remaja suka bersukan ria. Dipaksa jua untuk suka. dipaksa jua hati ini untuk menolak fitrah yang kepentingannya tiada melainkan hiburan semata-mata. Pernah juga rasa terbeban saat dipanggil berhalaqah. seolah-olah bebanan yang teramat sangat. Namun, dipaksa hati yang penuh titik noda untuk melawan nafsu malas.

tersedar betapa kadang-kala manusia perlu dipaksa. mungkin catalyst untuk berjaya. daripada paksa bertukar cinta. perasaan untuk menolak kerana rasa terpaksa itu sebenarnya nafsu kita. lawan.ibaratkan anda panglima di medan perang. di tangan anda nyawa beribu manusia beserta pengharapan mereka. musuh itu nafsu. lawan sehabis mungkin. jika anda kalah, anda lemah. menang  dengan nafsu. hebatnya sehebat seperti keluar berperang menentang musuh malah kadangkala lebih hebat dari itu. kerana nafsu itu mush halus lagi licik dan tersembunyi.

=)

say no to techno

salam,

this post is a luahan perasaan post. it'll benefit you nothing but if you do read this. please pray for me. i need more patient in handling all these.

hasil tangan manusia yang penuh dengan kelemahan.

i bet all my compaq friends are now having the same problem as me. there's no cure for this virus except investing your money for a brand new of charger, screen and whatever related. this is not my first time facing this type of disease and luckily i still have patient in me. if dun i'll just throw it out of my window and buy a new one but money constraints me from doing so.

it has been two years since it starts working day and night for me. loyal tau. sometimes, it did give me problem once or two but not as worse as now. spending money for battery. last year, i was lucky coz the company offers one year warranty. no charge and i was informed that it might cost me hundreds over if let say i had to pay by myself. yes, by myself. who else wants to pay for me.

printer is now in ICU. very sick. laptop too.sikit lagi kena buat siren penggera untuk FAMA's allowance. but i really dun want..xmau..malu..sebab kpm bagi elaun suruh beli barang keperluan belajar.

PC is much much better tha laptop. printer memang. terkenal dengan sifatnya yang suka bermasalah.=)