the power of perseverance.

assalamualaikum,

rabbuna yusahhil.

tomorrow, iA. i'm gonna start my new life. not yet a teacher. but, a journey to it. one inch close but not so close. once i pass, i'm getting closer. may Allah bless this journey. may Allah ease this journey. it's gonna be a tough journey. pack schedule. they said, my seniors. i'm not yet into yet. soon, i'll come up with my own statement and opinion.

what i need is to be persevered

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to my best friend

you know who you are (only if you're reading this short entry).

it's gonna be a tough journey to you too. i know u can do it. chayok! chayok!

till then,

on assignment hood

salam,

run as fast as you can,
nobody can catch me,
i'm a superwoman.

i wish i can be a superwoman.
tak suka merajuk
tak suka terasa hati
tak suka rasa nak marah
tak suka rasa berbelah bahagi.

i wish i can be a superwoman
i can do everything within the allocated time, 24 hours.
i can do all the assignments without any hassles

believe it or not.
i have submitted almost 10 assignments in less than a week excluded tomorrow.

meaning to say, almost every night was a nightmare.
i slept late only after midnight
i burned all the midnight oil and add some more oil, and continue burning it till the sun rose.
when the sun shined, i continued working. i walked to the class.
i walked just like a mad woman.
i looked at human as if i looked at my preys.
i couldn't open my eyes wide.
i had a clear black circle circling my eyes.

often, things don't turn up the way we want.

reflection is the best cure.

the first Tuesday in March

As-salam,

'when the busy-ness takes your time away from your cyber life.'

i thank the busy-ness. at least, it gives me a way to stay away from this hectic second life for awhile.  

words to ponder...

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'Indeed, the hypocrites will be in the lowest depths of the Fire - and never will you find for them a helper -Except for those who repent, correct themselves, hold fast to Allah , and are sincere in their religion for Allah , for those will be with the believers. And Allah is going to give the believers a great reward.' (An-Nisa: 145-146)

refresh your goal

salam,

hehe. catchy tak topic di atas? for 'teenager' like me who's not yet married and still waiting for my turn, this topic might be catchy.  this is one of the most popular discussion/chit-chatting/gossiping topics in my class  and even during discussion. we can drag and stretch it until more than two hours. hot! this is serious. you don't have to lie at me. i know it coz i'm still a teenager though at this age, you can call me 'remaja terlajak' but do you think i care? haha.

that's not the purpose i'm here today.

these days, early marriage has became a popular trend. should i call it a trend or what not. no, i'm not saying it's a bad trend. it's a good trend actually. a good trend to follow. marriage is sunnah. there should be no reasons to say no when you're capable enough to practice the sunnah or in a short and sweet phrase, when your time comes.

kalau diri ini kata tak teringin, cubit saya kuat-kuat.

that's what we call psychological need. to be loved.

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i was at a supermarket near to my college. that was not my first time seeing a young couple with baby. they looked so young and fragile. the wife was walking behind the husband carrying the infant. she looked like a secondary school teenager. the husband was wearing jeans and simpan ekor kat belakang. dye rambut sikit. same goes to his wife.

be positive syahira! hehe

for some reasons, i pity the infant. she'll grow up with her/his growing parents. they' ll grow up together. in the process of growing up, babies and toddlers will tend to pick up their parents life style, words and almost everything. what if they pick up the negative ones. hurm.

going through a few stages in life, i just couldn't deny the importance of a good role model in the family. children and teenagers are the two groups of human with the high level of curiosity. the wanna know something new. they wanna try something new, challenging things. as long as it's challenging, they will love it too bits.

that's not their fault nor their parents fault. it's the society's fault. the mass media's fault.

but why? put on your thinking cap! and think..why am i blunt enough to drag the society and mass media in a small family problem? there must be some reasons. pikiaqla. saya pun tak tahu but what can i say is it's not only one sided fault.

early marriage itself is good. but how to take care and build a good family when the parents themselves are not capable to be the role models.

browsing through the face book news feed just now and reading a wall post posted by one of the moderators for seminar baitul muslim. i'd be proud enough to share her words. she said 'don't wait for the right person, be the right person'.

a little bit of improvement by me,
be the right person not only to get the right person but for the sake of your future little caliphs. they're indeed a part of your shadow.

faham x? kalau tak faham, buat-buat faham la.

i'm not against the early marriage but thing that i would like to emphasize here is 'know your aim and set the right aim'.

the sweetness of marriage will never last long if the aim is wrong and against the principle of Islam.

know your reason before you proceed into a risky yet wonderful life; marriage.

till then,
sis

i wonder why

Assalamualaikum,

this conversation happened yesterday in a petrol station

adik minta bantuan: kak, saya dari sekolah tahfiz .......... saya ada menjual bam. ada harga sepuluh n dua puluh ringgit. kalau kak tak mau beli pun tak pa. derma seikhlas hati
me: adik mai dari mana?
adik minta bantuan: sekolah tahfiz..........., sik, kedah
me: hari ni hari rabu. adik tak sekolah ka?
adik mita bantuan: yangs aya buat ni salah satu dari aktiviti sekolah.
me: oho!

i ended up giving her some amount of money. i ,sincerely, said to her that i didn't have such amount of money to buy her 'ubat' yet i could give her some, sincerely from the bottom of my heart. sank! why should i be such  sincere. she must be laughing at my stupidity and blurrness. hahaha! i just couldn't think straight at the moment she came to me. well! i was still nervous. driving alone made me crazy. i just couldn't think straight. haha that's not the problem here.

what mattered most was why she spent her time doing such activity. they should be in class doing exercises, learning and exploring something new.

as far as i know, students are not allowed to linger outside of the school area during school time. even it's for the sake of school. that's not the children's responsibility. finding or collecting school fund are not their responsibility. they should be in the classroom. that's their premise.to learn.not to raise fund. not to travel from the north to the south just to raise fund for the school's sake. that's what we call human trafficking. isn't it?

that's not my first time experience yet it was my first time ever having such thinking.

things like that should not happen to children and teenagers.

it's school job to raise fund and think of how to korek money for the sake of the children's future.

regards,
sayageram

Sony Bata

salam
sis: i woke up early this morning. it's all your alarm's fault
me: i dunno what to do. it'll still ring even if the battery is almost empty. dh mati pun bunyi wei.
sis: that's the power of sony bata.
me: oh well!

hahaha

two years ago, me and my friend were happy to announce on the arrival of our new sony babies. people called it Sony James Bond. when i first brought it back, everyone was fascinated with its new va va da boom  application.

two years has gone. people start to call my phone 'bata'. hey! it's just two years. agaknya, kalau 4 tahun?? mungkin dinasour kot? al maklumla, mobile phone zaman skrang makin nipis tahap baling kat kucing, kucing tak lari. dia gelak je. =P

dear technology, cool bebeh!

iron guna komputer..ala-ala scan barang kat tesco..hahaha

soon to be launched! trust me..=P

regards,
sis

faham-memahami

salam,

jeng..jeng..jeng
today's topic is 'faham memahami'

it's just simply a topic and it's got nothing to do with anybody.

it keeps popping up in my hard disk's news feed these days.. plup..plup..

recently, i've lots lots of things to think (unrelated to education business, definitely). until one day, i just can't hold it no more. it's a huge mistake to keep it on and on and let it be unsolved and sometimes, i'd rather try to comfort myself to just let it be. it's gonna get heal soon. sometimes, it turns out good but most of the time, it's getting worst, beyond the level i can imagine. huhu

the end..

in life, i bet, no one will have to endure the problem sickness if we apply the concept of understanding. but, in order to be understood, we must learn to live a life of the same premise.

as much as we try not to be cruel and to be fair to others, that much we'll be tested whether we're able to practice what we had said.

as you grow up, things like this will pop up in a sudden in your life in no matter how much you want to avoid it or you try to avoid it. what can i say is educate yourself to be understanding. teach yourself to walk in other's shoes.

tiba-tiba je terfikir, bayangkan, semua orang saling memahami. lengkap melengkapi. aman.

tapi, adat kehidupan.

ujian, masalah, cabaran, pening kepala, proses menerima, proses berfikir, proses menyelesaikan masalah, dugaan sesama manusia kan sebahagian daripada kehidupan.

#terus tabah dan jadi positif#

Tuesday's ramblings. =D

regards,
sis

phd orang

Most people don't experience the life of their dreams simply because they quit way too easily.-

salam,

sembang-sembang dengan pelajar phd

us: how many years left, madam?
madam: 2 years but that's no more my priority. i'm thinking of quit.
us: huh. but, why? just two years left aite
madam: stressful.

it took me a minute to digest what does it mean actually. for real, she'd wanna quit. just like that. 'quit' when only two years left to wrap up everything. oh man! what a waste... but, little did i know, she maybe had her own strong reasons. was trying to be as positive as i could coz the only thought that i'd have that day was to ask her why? gov had spent thousands for her, yet, as simple as that, she's thinking of quit. so sad.

there's one time when i came across a tabloid  and read an article entitled, 'pelajar phd di luar negara yang tak habiskan pengajian kena bayar balik'.  the main point was 'pay back'. my initial thought was 'kejam gila'. where to find such a huge amount of money. untuk lebih adil, yang dalam negara pun patut bayar balik.

in some way, gov has their own reason too why they should act that cruel. it's okay if let say the phd candidates have a very strong, unavoidable reason but if the reasons are just as wishy-washy as boredom and stressful, then, they deserve to be punished. tak boleh buat rayuan. bayar semua. hihihi.

orang Malaysia tak boleh cepat mengalah. semoga diberi kekuatan ke atas orang itu untuk teruskan. chayok! keep it up. don't give up!

regards,
sis

a quick reminder

salam,

just a quick reminder for myself and you, the readers.

if you wanna be heard, be heard!!

Empathy game

salam,

today's lesson is about empathy

who knows what does it mean by empathy?put up your hands.

you'll see a large crowd of human are putting their hands high up in the sky.

it looks like everyone knows and understands the concept of empathy but how many of you have been practicing it or at least, hardly trying to put yourself into other's conditions or feelings?

very little. melainkan kalau tengok movie hindustan/korea/cinta. boleh sampai reyau sebaldi. lagho!

just wanna quote an example from what had happened this morning. four of us went to a department in our college to lodge a report upon the mistakes happened in the process of calculating our results. we insisted to have a look at our real results cz most of us can't wait no more. almost three months had passed and why took so long just to count our pointer.

guess what the person said

"cikgu, it's no longer important to know your pointer. keep on studying. u'olz kan dah pass dan boleh teruskan pengajian."

tak baik tau, penat kami perah otak baca buku. berhitaman jalan pegi kelas. mata bengkak macam panda sebab study last minute. mestila nak tahu tahap pencapaian kami sekarang. gigit telinga satgi baru tau!

cuba jalan dalam kasut kami, walk in our shoes! we have been walking in the gov system's nutshell for so long and we always end up to 'regret'.

peace no war, ke arah Malaysia yang lebih efisien dan sistematik.

regards,
cikgu

January's life lesson

salam,

life is an everyday lesson.

today's lesson is about contentment. yeah! the state of being satisfied. satisfaction.

i remember passing through a blog which i couldn't remember no more but i still remember what's inside the blog. the excerpt of a saying written by Yasmin Mogahed. i love every single of her words. meaningful and tactful. here goes the full version of it.

Often what makes us fall into despair is focusing on the wrong things. For example, if we’ve sinned, we focus on the sin, rather than the Most Merciful. If we’re broken, we focus on the break instead of Al Jabbar, the One who mends. If we are in pain, we focus on the pain itself, instead of on the One who removes all pain. If we are wounded, we focus on the wound instead of on the One who heals all wounds. If we’re scared, we focus on the fear, instead of the Protector. And if we’re facing a problem, we see the problem, but not the One who can solve it. We see the lion, but not the lion tamer. We see the imperfections of dunya, but not the perfection of Allah. We see the immediate, but not the Tomorrow, the tree, but not the fruit, the thorn, but not the rose. All our pain, all our despair, all our hopelessness, stems from looking at the creation, instead of the Creator. Ask yourself: what is your heart looking at? -Yasmin Mogahed-

i remember posted a picture of  minnie and bobo with a quotation in between of the two subjects.

"All life is an experiment, the more experiment you make the better" -Ralph Waldo Emerson-

ayat-ayat penyedap hati. tak sedap mana pun.

bak kata Macbeth ;-

  "What's done, cannot be undone"

moving back isn't a wise way to express the regretful and sadness. it's just one way to escape.

“You can't look back - you just have to put the past behind you, and find something better in your future.” -Jodi Picoult-

whatever it is, move on. life is truly an experiment. the hypothesis is sometimes failed to be proved but that does not mean you'll forever fail. it just a signal of you need to find some other methods that suits your style and intelligence. never give up trying until you make sure your hypothesis is truly make sense and accepted.

who says you can't do it when you're already half way through it. whatever people say, it will never change anything until you change your inner self and making a move.

its normal to be sad but forget not that the power was in your hand. whatever that came out reflects what you'd been doing for the pass six months. learn to bear defeat with dignity, accept criticism with poise.

often, when we're sad, we can't think of anyone near to us who can make us comfort just like what our parents and sisters can do to sooth the mixed up feelings. hey, always remember, we have Him forever and ever. always turn to him regardless of time and situations. He knows best and He will never test us with something that we're not capable with. it can be a wake up call. reflect and act!

Kerana itulah Rasulullah s.a.w ada mengingatkan:“Kiranya kamu mahu meminta pertolongan mintalah pertolongan dengan Allah.”
(Tirmizi, Kitab sifat al-Qiyamah wa al-Wara’, no. 2454)

things might not always turn to as you wish.
be positive and stay away from prejudice.
too high expectations may cause depression.
be moderate
always say 'alhamdulillah'.
never ask as if you're more than deserve to get whatever you always wish and aim for. reflect! and be grateful.

some says, pointer is just a matter of number, the skill you possessed is counted. me said, 'its isn't just a matter of number'. it's a symbol of contentment.

=)

till then,
salam

S.R.K

salam,

so, so, so...

my topic today is stress. everyone has their own signals of stress and ways to handle it.mine. you don't ask me coz this is one way to reduce my stress. so many thing's coming. one by one. one after another. 

should be having fun before the chaotic assignments's months start.

burr, if only i have a chance to press the u turn button. i believe i'm gonna do so. wishing to start my life over again and correct all the mistakes that I've done for so many years. but, sadly, there's no u-turn button in our real life. there's only patient button. a key to succeed. a key of everything. 

back to the negative stress story. you know, when you're in a state of stress, you will see almost everything around you is the cause of it. that's what we called prejudice. melayu kata, tengok orang ni nak cubit, tengok orang tu nak gigit. 

Actually, the utmost key to fight against stress is to replace negative thoughts with positive ones. Look to the bright side of every situation. 

chayok2. =)

=)

Adakah patut kamu menyangka bahawa kamu akan masuk syurga, padahal belum sampai kepada kamu (ujian dan cubaan) seperti yang telah berlaku kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kamu? Mereka telah ditimpa kepapaan (kemusnahan harta benda) dan serangan penyakit, serta digoncangkan (oleh ancaman bahaya musuh), sehingga berkatalah Rasul dan orang-orang yang beriman yang ada besertanya: "Bilakah (datangnya) pertolongan Allah?" Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah itu dekat (asalkan kamu bersabar dan berpegang teguh kepada ugama Allah).                   (Surah Al-Baqarah: 214)

Wednesday story

salam,

i was about to climb the stairs when suddenly, came two girls.

they smiled at me dan saya pun sedekah senyum gigi dan gusi.

i was about to make my first move climbing up the stairs.

the Indian girl suddenly said 'bye syira'

orang ramah kan. turun satu anak tangga. sengih nampak gigi gusi semua kat junior tu.

buntang mata dia.

rupa-rupanya, kawan dia nama pun nama syira jugak. she greeted her friend not me lah. malu!


moral of the lesson:
senyum sikit-sikit je. kalau silap bolehla cover. ni ha tak sempat cover. kantoi, perasan.

=D

words have power

salam,

if you're just like me, (rajin baca muka buku =P) you'll know which issues i'm referring to. =) yeah, the latest one. the one that opens millions of eyes. the one that successfully wins zillions of humans' attentions. the one that is followed by billions of comments and thoughts. that shows how concern we are. 

my first impression upon watching the short video. fuhh, rude! 

listen!listen!listen!

its good to repeat so that people can hear you clearly but its rude to stop someone and humiliating her in front of the whole crowd. that's an unacceptable behaviour I've ever seen throughout my whole life. you can be a lecturer nor a prime minister but you have no power to do so.to humiliate people. to use the high tone intonation just to stress a few points that you think are right.

the adults shape the younger generations through modelling. she's not a good role model neither a good advisor, listener and adult. she can't be a leader. a leader must always act cool and realistic in whatever she/he is doing. 

orang Melayu kata:

'kerana pulut santan binasa, kerana mulut badan binasa'

kata-kata melambangkan kita. buruk yang keluar buruklah kita. ada beza, kata-kata seorang pemimpin dengan seorang pencacai. ada beza kata-kata orang yang faham erti 'menghormati' dan yang tidak faham. 

memang. yang muda haruslah bersopan santun dengan yang lebih tua. tapi tak bermaksud yang tua boleh mencerca dan menyiat nyiat hati si muda. hukum alam, yang muda menyantuni yang tua. yang sebenarnya, hormat menghormati sesama manusia tak kira usia, bangsa dan bangsa. 

jangan dibalas cerca dengan cerca.

sekarang masanya untuk berubah. ramai lagi di Malaysia yang kurang skill berkasih sayang dan hormat menghormati walau di media massa sering diwar-warkan kempen 'Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita'

'BUDI BAHASA, BUDAYA KITA'

nak berhujah dari segi matan ucapan takut banyak salah dari betulnya. mampu memerhati kesedaran moral dan sivik  yang nyata sangatla rapuh nipis. 

regards,

me

dream! dream! dream!

A dream doesn't become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work.

-Colin Powell

salam,

chicken soup for the soul for women

premise 1: leaving A for B
premise 2: leaving B for C
can i just have all?
how if, in life, i want all?
i wanna be a succeed lady with degree, kids and a husband in between, master degree, phd and everything.

chicken soup for the soul for mothers
can i have all in life?
i have money, handsome spouse, good looking children, smart children, money, respect, holiday, maids, new handbags, beautiful skin, gorgeous in the eyes of my family members and all.

chicken soup for the soul for students (girls)
can i have all in life?
time, bombastic result, car, beautiful dress, up to date gadgets, attention in class, money, tolerable friends, wise, clever, all and everything that looks perfect in the eyes of human.

don't cheat and stop denying
it never comes across in my mind to have all those above in life. (abnormal)

the normal is to have all those in mind. dreaming of marrying a prince charming. i did that once when i was still young. now, its a waste of my sleeping time. i dream of something that only can turn out to be a reality.

to dream is never a crime yet its good. sort of motivation. but there's two types of dreaming. one that can turn to be a reality and the other one that's completely rubbish.

be off the total rubbish dreams. dream of something real and can turn to be a reality in life.

example:
once, i'm gonna hold a scroll.
once, i'm gonna jump and scream in the isle of snow.

p/s: one of my zillions of dreams comes true. alhamdulillah.

=P
till then, salam

the one I admire

Tomorrow hopes we have learned something from yesterday.

-John Wayne

salam,

deep in her eyes, she's trying hard to be strong and patient. looking into her eyes, i bet everyone would have the same thing in mind. never in my whole life, i met anyone like her. her patient and positiveness inspired me. i would wanna be like her.

when it was time for her to speak out, i couldn't hold my tears no more coz i know that she's holding back her tears and she's trying to look cool. if i were her, i couldn't stay cool and relax and happy as her. the fact that i'm still and forever sick would stick in the inner side of me and hunt me for no reason but that's not her. there's no time for her to grieve for what had happened and still happening to her now and then.

to her, that was just a test. it really was a test but the fact that she could be such cool and positive made me proud of her. she's an ordinary woman.

i turned to someone next to me just to confirm whether the brain operation is considered as major or minor operation. the doc to be told me a fact that brain controls our body system and the small damage may cause our whole life. so, the answer for my qualm was major operation. =). yes, the one that i highlighted here was having a major operation which might affect her whole life. her calmness shadowed her illness.

looking into her eyes was more than enough to make me realize that i could be like her if i want t.o. the illness made her strong. i dun want the illness just to make me strong and be as patient as her coz me myself not sure whether i could face it calmly and positively like her. i  just want to highlight here that sometimes, we need such friend to make us realize how bless we are.

she's fighting not only for her normal life but also for us. for He will never test us with something that we are not capable to. 

Ya Syafi, make my girl strong.

malam tu kami tadabbur surah maryam. semakin lama tadabbur surah tu semakin rasa yang kesabaran dia mungkin tak sehebat kesabaran dan ketakwaan Maryam r.a tapi dia mencontohi kesabaran Maryam r.a. Ada yang tersembunyi di sebalik tangisan dan dugaan.  Yang terlalu istimewa diluar daya penglihatan dan pemikiran manusia. 

16. Dan bacakanlah (wahai Muhammad) di dalam Kitab Al-Quran ini perihal Maryam, ketika dia memencilkan diri dari keluarganya di sebuah tempat sebelah timur.

17. Kemudian Maryam membuat dinding untuk melindungi dirinya dari mereka maka Kami hantarkan kepadanya: Roh dari kami lalu ia menyamar diri kepadanya sebagai seorang lelaki yang sempurna bentuk kejadiannya.

18. Maryam berkata: Sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepada (Allah) Ar-Rahman daripada (gangguan) mu kalaulah engkau seorang yang bertaqwa.

19. Ia berkata: "Sesungguhnya aku pesuruh Tuhanmu, untuk menyebabkanmu dikurniakan seorang anak yang suci".

20. Maryam bertanya (dengan cemas): Bagaimanakah aku akan beroleh seorang anak lelaki, padahal aku tidak pernah disentuh oleh seorang lelaki pun, dan aku pula bukan perempuan jahat?

21. Ia menjawab: "Demikianlah keadaannya tak usahlah dihairankan; Tuhanmu berfirman: Hal itu mudah bagiKu; dan Kami hendak menjadikan pemberian anak itu sebagai satu tanda (yang membuktikan kekuasaan Kami) untuk umat manusia dan sebagai satu rahmat dari Kami; dan hal itu adalah satu perkara yang telah ditetapkan berlakunya.

22. Maka Maryam hamilah mengandungnya, lalu ia memencilkan diri dengan kandungannya itu ke sebuah tempat yang jauh.

23. (Ketika ia hendak bersalin) maka sakit beranak itu memaksanya (pergi bersandar) ke pangkal sebatang pohon tamar (kurma); ia berkata alangkah baiknya kalau aku mati sebelum ini dan menjadilah aku sesuatu yang dilupakan orang dan tidak dikenang-kenang!

24. Lalu ia diseru dari sebelah bawahnya:" Janganlah engkau berdukacita (wahai Maryam), sesungguhnya Tuhanmu telah menjadikan di bawahmu sebatang anak sungai.

25. Dan gegarlah ke arahmu batang pohon tamar itu, supaya gugur kepadamu buah tamar yang masak.

26. "Maka makanlah dan minumlah serta bertenanglah hati dari segala yang merunsingkan. Kemudian kalau engkau melihat seseorang manusia, maka katakanlah: Sesungguhnya aku bernazar diam membisu kerana (Allah) Ar-Rahman; (setelah aku menyatakan yang demikian) maka aku tidak akan berkata-kata kepada sesiapapun dari kalangan manusia pada hari ini".

(Maryam 19: 16-26)

wassalam.

see what's in my brain

salam,

don't let me unread. =P

falling in love into knitting world. oh, oh! ecstacy. just before i came back to start my new sem, mak said 'sempatka nak mengait time kat sana'. to which i replied 'i think i will have more than enough time but let's see first'. for now, i would say, i have more than enough time coz  each and everyday since the first day i'm here, i never skip knitting be it before i go into my fantasy world or after class.believe me, you will make it a reality if you really love it. being me,i know, it's not going to be long. there will be something else that might bother and crave my interest sooner or later. heheheh! It takes only less than 15 minutes to finish off one simple project which i find it awesome. i made four bracelets for me and on the way to finish a ' drinkware cover (pelapik)'.

reading is quite a tough journey when you have someone to talk to. i have my room mate and we spent most of our time getting up to date to our two-months -holidays' gossips. but, my journey needs my intention in reading. well, i want to prove to our prime minister that he doesn't need any helps from the outsiders coz soon, there will be a throng of English teachers waiting to serve their nation and to improve the level of English in his land. 

grrr, his decision makes me upset and i believe, most of my cliques may have the same feeling too. my only hope is may Najib turn down his plan and give us, the future English teachers some hopes that we're also capable and able to improve the level of English in our  own country without having to waste money and time hiring someone else who know nothing about the our cultures and our future generations' needs.

 rasa nak gigit telinga orang yang nak ambil guru dari india sedangkan ramai lagi cikgu bi yg daebak nak keluar mengajar. 

its good to have someone, who really know about education and the needs of future generation mainly in education, to discuss and cruise in the same ship in decision making. 

till the, wassalam

3/01/13

salam,

alhamdulillah, thumma alhamdulillah
gayat! ibaratnya macam orang yg phobia tempat tinggi kena paksa naik tingkat 44.
dah sampai ke tingkat 44, haruslah berjalan walaupun pening, takut, rasa nak muntah dan sebagainya.
tak kan nak suruh orang tolak dengan kerusi roda sedangkan masih mampu berjalan cuna halangannya 'cuak'
hihihihi. alhamdulillah, dah dua hari berjalan. lemah lembut je berjalan kali ni.hari pertama kelas pun dah mengantuk.  bukan sebab bosan tapi letih kemas barang. hari pertama di sesi terakhir kelas, baru terdetik rasa 'setahun dah betul-betul berlalu lagi la'.

365 hari yang lepas. alhamdulillah, berjaya diharungi. tadi dapat berita gembira lagi. alhamdulillah. segalanya bukan senang dan segalanya bukan susah. bukan susah dan bukan senang. jadi, untuk jadikan bukan susah, haruslah berusaha sehingga tiada lagi mampu sambil meminta dan berdoa pada Al-Wahhab. sebenarnya, ini soal result. hehehe

terdetik di hati:

hasil tekun membaca muka buku, terjumpa ini, dikongsi oleh seorang senior,

Daripada Abu Hurairah RA juga daripada Nabi SAW sabdanya, “Hinalah kemudian, hinalah kemudian, hinalah (bagi) mereka yang sempat hidup bersama dengan salah seorang daripada ibu bapanya atau kedua-duanya sekali ketika mereka tua sedangkan dia tidak dapat masuk syurga (dengan sebab itu)”. -Riwayat Muslim-

=) matan hadis yang sangat mudah untuk difahami bagi pendapat saya. 

mudahnya mendapat syurga sebenarnya kan. jalan terbentang dan dibentang luas di pandangan kita. caranya pelbagai. itu cara apabila berada dengan ibu bapa. berbakti, menyenangkan hati dan mendoakan mereka. dush! belum lagi cara apabila menuntut ilmu. infinity cara.

berapa ramai yang berkata inginkan syurga tapi berapa ramai sahajalah yang berusaha untuknya. 

nota hari kedua di alaf baru 2013. 

di kala semua orang berseronok dengan azam baru.

masih termanggu mencari signifikasi 2013 dengan diri. 

2013,

berlalulah dengan tenang setenang air di muara

pun sekiranya ada kepayahan yang menghempas seganas ombak menghempas pantai

ku dambakan kesabaran sebagai bentengnya. 

=)

nak gelak! haahahahaha

nak nangis!wuaaaaaaaa

till then, 

wassalam

on blessings

salam,

its everyday motivation actually. count your blessings! if it sounds crazy, count today's blessing. if it is still impossible, start counting once a new day begins. if it is still impossible, bolehla berhenti merungut dan mengeluh! 

banyak betul nikmat dari musibah.

looking from a positive side, musibah is actually one of the countless blessing. only it comes in a different way  just to leave a great impact on us. 

me and my friend have agreed that humans are often forget things that is easy in life but no the difficult and hurtful one. 

life will be great of you think great. 

Think Great will give you the tools to begin achieving greatness in your life.

Ucapkan alhamdulillah setiap hari without fail. 

peace no war,

wassalam

'school uniform' free

salam,

good time flies so fast.
my baby sister is now free from school uniform. graduated from secondary school. just now, while we are on the home, i said to her 'dulu adik kata adik tak mau sekolah tu, sekarang dah habis sekolah dah pun'. she replied 'diam la'..haha. see, how time flies.

right now, i'm missing my old days in school.

 it was few days before the schooling days ended, i did something meaningful for the whole life. let's called it my farewell activities. that was the extreme thing i ever did. i climbed into a steep stairs to reach the most hunted place ever in school. each and everyone of us would do that before leaving school but not all.  we were prohibited to be near the water storage tank area apatah lagi to climb on the stairs to get there. hihihi.  sadly, i forgot to carve anything on the water tank because i was still very modest and sane at that moment of time. well, i was still fresh and very easily got scared of people will charge on me if i did so. the truth is no one will actually know it if i don't open the secret publicly. now, i'm regretting my action. if only i carve something on the tank, i will have a very fantastic story for my future kids to show that their mother was naughty too when she was in school.

what made me even feel excited about this was i climbed with my kurung and big rounded scarf.
not only that, my school located in a village area. we used to jog around our school area and i'm already miss  every single moment i walked around while enjoying the highway view. the view that always brought my soul home. i loved not only the scenery but also the no ending natural aquarium aka longkang. It was few days before the day to bit a forever good bye i guess when i decided to explore the aquatic habitat. once again, i was on my kurung. i ran like a champion. i fished like a master but i forgot to put on my thinking cap. thus, i let the fish to swim in the chlorinate water. guess what happened the day on, the fish died brutally. hahah. the evil side of me. oh man! i learnt a lot from things happened that day.

that's how i spend my few days left before leaving home and bit a forever goodbye to my secondary school uniform and thousands of rules.

next year, i'm gonna be 22! alhamdulillah. i'm delighted but at the same time petrified with the fact that i'm getting older by every minutes. wrinkles are now, surely fighting to replace the smooth skin of mine.haha

08-12

that was four years ago. four years.so many things happened. some of my friends who was running like a small children begging the little fish to entertain our remaining days in school that day had own a little family of theirs. 

years and years and counting. =)