cousin's E- day

salam,

another member in our extended family finds her life time partner. teeheee. the adults said, being engaged~; it's gonna be a tough journey. May Allah grant both of  them with an endless perseverance to face all the coming challenges. i bet no one is hoping for it yet, we can't run away from conflicts and problems. my only advice is face it with maturity. it's gonna be a fun one.

mine is still unseen. Ooo Allah s.w.t,  make it seen when my turn comes. ~nak jugak~  =P

regards,

sis

Wednesday's lesson

salam,

Yesterday has passed, forever, beyond our control. The other day we should worry about is tomorrow. who can be sure the sun will rise again tomorrow.

i love the idea of having a 'me' time. with no one's around you. you can hear nothing but the sound of the squeaking moving fan.

sometimes, i love but all the time, i prefer to have someone else with me making noise in this cozy suite. =P

owh, that's just a set induction. just to inform how much i prefer to be alone sometimes, to reminisce the moments i had spend in my life.

late in the afternoon, i had a long chat with a not so closed friend, while waiting for an appointment with our subject lecturer. hurm, sometimes, it's good to have a new working partner. at least, it's gonna be a new, fun journey to explore.

our girl's talk's topic was 'susah vs senang'.

 we both shared the same idea about life. once, we were on the same boat. experiencing the hard life. i bet not so many of us had had experienced it esp if you're coming from an educated family or maybe, we had our own definition for 'hard time'. my father was a teacher with 8 growing children. hihi. living in a village made me feel nothing except peaceful and contented even without so much money and beautiful clothes.  i never asked for toys. we didn't mind wearing whatever our parents afford to buy for us. that's why i was and still good in fishing. hihi. my hobby was fishing. everyone in the house called me by a blink blink name 'senduk'. i was a special little kiddo with the ability to make people feel really annoyed. not my fault. kids should be entertain by toys. that's the rule of life made by human but we had no money to buy toys, so we ended up doing whatever we thought appropriate and fun. so much to tell cz back then, in the Nineties, life was quite hard. just imagine, one working parent to feed one perfect football team in the house. but, they did it well. they managed the difficulties well or maybe, they successfully turned it into a challenge. road to bring up 8 children. impressed!

that was a little bit of my history.

hers was even more harder than me. i wasn't alone experiencing such life. at least, we had had such experience and now, we have something to turn to and to reflect once we're at the top of the world.

there was one thing that we both agreed upon, we don't want such life to re visit our life and our future generations' life yet again.

tapikan,
ada ibrah di setiap dugaan dan ujian
kesusahan dulu menjadikan kita yang sekarang
menjadikan ibu bapa kita yang sabar dan tersangat sabar
menjadikan kita nekad untuk berjaya dan mempunyai kerjaya
chayok!

yesterday has passed, tomorrow is the future and still a fold mystery.

regards,
sis

Betapa beruntungnya kami..

salam,

ucapan bukan sekadar ucapan

ingatan bukan sekadar ingatan

rindu bukan sekadar rindu

tapi disertakan dengan perbuatan

yang sepatutnya selalu menjadi tauladan

sehari untuk 342 hari. 

yakin! semua ingin menjadi lebih baik.

semoga 'lebih baik' bukan sekadar azam dan selamanya kekal menjadi azam.

Salam Maulidur Rasul 1434H

Hari bersejarah memperingati kelahiran junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad s.a.w

=)

class picnic

“A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow.”

― William Shakespeare

salam,

how did you spend your weekend?

mine was great. spending  some quality time with the fellow classmates at the beach, under the sun. hurm,  it's easy to forget about friendships when you're trying to keep up with so many things in your life. so, that's the exact reason why i chose not to miss this opportunity. last time, they had picnic at the same beach but with so many of us were not around due to so many reasons. but, this time, we managed to gather almost everyone of us to sit together and planned a picnic. three of our classmates were not around but, we really hoped they could spend their time with us too.

And they plan, and Allah also plans. And Allah is the Best of Planners (Surah Anfal: 30)

we had so much fun. i pretty sure i got to know more about my friends. they're crazy as always and even, crazier than before. oh! maybe, age made us all crazier each and every single day. three years of psychologically and emotionally togetherness seemed not enough for us to know each other better but at least, we kept on learning and trying to build a strong relationship among us all.

 i'm surely gonna miss the moments we spend together once it's time for me to leave this arena. one year and 11 months to go. can't wait to finish off this journey and start with a new challenging journey. deep meaning. hihi. =)

weekending

regards,

syahira ismail

Empathy game

salam,

today's lesson is about empathy

who knows what does it mean by empathy?put up your hands.

you'll see a large crowd of human are putting their hands high up in the sky.

it looks like everyone knows and understands the concept of empathy but how many of you have been practicing it or at least, hardly trying to put yourself into other's conditions or feelings?

very little. melainkan kalau tengok movie hindustan/korea/cinta. boleh sampai reyau sebaldi. lagho!

just wanna quote an example from what had happened this morning. four of us went to a department in our college to lodge a report upon the mistakes happened in the process of calculating our results. we insisted to have a look at our real results cz most of us can't wait no more. almost three months had passed and why took so long just to count our pointer.

guess what the person said

"cikgu, it's no longer important to know your pointer. keep on studying. u'olz kan dah pass dan boleh teruskan pengajian."

tak baik tau, penat kami perah otak baca buku. berhitaman jalan pegi kelas. mata bengkak macam panda sebab study last minute. mestila nak tahu tahap pencapaian kami sekarang. gigit telinga satgi baru tau!

cuba jalan dalam kasut kami, walk in our shoes! we have been walking in the gov system's nutshell for so long and we always end up to 'regret'.

peace no war, ke arah Malaysia yang lebih efisien dan sistematik.

regards,
cikgu

January's life lesson

salam,

life is an everyday lesson.

today's lesson is about contentment. yeah! the state of being satisfied. satisfaction.

i remember passing through a blog which i couldn't remember no more but i still remember what's inside the blog. the excerpt of a saying written by Yasmin Mogahed. i love every single of her words. meaningful and tactful. here goes the full version of it.

Often what makes us fall into despair is focusing on the wrong things. For example, if we’ve sinned, we focus on the sin, rather than the Most Merciful. If we’re broken, we focus on the break instead of Al Jabbar, the One who mends. If we are in pain, we focus on the pain itself, instead of on the One who removes all pain. If we are wounded, we focus on the wound instead of on the One who heals all wounds. If we’re scared, we focus on the fear, instead of the Protector. And if we’re facing a problem, we see the problem, but not the One who can solve it. We see the lion, but not the lion tamer. We see the imperfections of dunya, but not the perfection of Allah. We see the immediate, but not the Tomorrow, the tree, but not the fruit, the thorn, but not the rose. All our pain, all our despair, all our hopelessness, stems from looking at the creation, instead of the Creator. Ask yourself: what is your heart looking at? -Yasmin Mogahed-

i remember posted a picture of  minnie and bobo with a quotation in between of the two subjects.

"All life is an experiment, the more experiment you make the better" -Ralph Waldo Emerson-

ayat-ayat penyedap hati. tak sedap mana pun.

bak kata Macbeth ;-

  "What's done, cannot be undone"

moving back isn't a wise way to express the regretful and sadness. it's just one way to escape.

“You can't look back - you just have to put the past behind you, and find something better in your future.” -Jodi Picoult-

whatever it is, move on. life is truly an experiment. the hypothesis is sometimes failed to be proved but that does not mean you'll forever fail. it just a signal of you need to find some other methods that suits your style and intelligence. never give up trying until you make sure your hypothesis is truly make sense and accepted.

who says you can't do it when you're already half way through it. whatever people say, it will never change anything until you change your inner self and making a move.

its normal to be sad but forget not that the power was in your hand. whatever that came out reflects what you'd been doing for the pass six months. learn to bear defeat with dignity, accept criticism with poise.

often, when we're sad, we can't think of anyone near to us who can make us comfort just like what our parents and sisters can do to sooth the mixed up feelings. hey, always remember, we have Him forever and ever. always turn to him regardless of time and situations. He knows best and He will never test us with something that we're not capable with. it can be a wake up call. reflect and act!

Kerana itulah Rasulullah s.a.w ada mengingatkan:“Kiranya kamu mahu meminta pertolongan mintalah pertolongan dengan Allah.”
(Tirmizi, Kitab sifat al-Qiyamah wa al-Wara’, no. 2454)

things might not always turn to as you wish.
be positive and stay away from prejudice.
too high expectations may cause depression.
be moderate
always say 'alhamdulillah'.
never ask as if you're more than deserve to get whatever you always wish and aim for. reflect! and be grateful.

some says, pointer is just a matter of number, the skill you possessed is counted. me said, 'its isn't just a matter of number'. it's a symbol of contentment.

=)

till then,
salam

teaser~

salam,

location: Pantai Shamrock, Batu Feringghi

S.R.K

salam,

so, so, so...

my topic today is stress. everyone has their own signals of stress and ways to handle it.mine. you don't ask me coz this is one way to reduce my stress. so many thing's coming. one by one. one after another. 

should be having fun before the chaotic assignments's months start.

burr, if only i have a chance to press the u turn button. i believe i'm gonna do so. wishing to start my life over again and correct all the mistakes that I've done for so many years. but, sadly, there's no u-turn button in our real life. there's only patient button. a key to succeed. a key of everything. 

back to the negative stress story. you know, when you're in a state of stress, you will see almost everything around you is the cause of it. that's what we called prejudice. melayu kata, tengok orang ni nak cubit, tengok orang tu nak gigit. 

Actually, the utmost key to fight against stress is to replace negative thoughts with positive ones. Look to the bright side of every situation. 

chayok2. =)

=)

Adakah patut kamu menyangka bahawa kamu akan masuk syurga, padahal belum sampai kepada kamu (ujian dan cubaan) seperti yang telah berlaku kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kamu? Mereka telah ditimpa kepapaan (kemusnahan harta benda) dan serangan penyakit, serta digoncangkan (oleh ancaman bahaya musuh), sehingga berkatalah Rasul dan orang-orang yang beriman yang ada besertanya: "Bilakah (datangnya) pertolongan Allah?" Ketahuilah, sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah itu dekat (asalkan kamu bersabar dan berpegang teguh kepada ugama Allah).                   (Surah Al-Baqarah: 214)

Wednesday story

salam,

i was about to climb the stairs when suddenly, came two girls.

they smiled at me dan saya pun sedekah senyum gigi dan gusi.

i was about to make my first move climbing up the stairs.

the Indian girl suddenly said 'bye syira'

orang ramah kan. turun satu anak tangga. sengih nampak gigi gusi semua kat junior tu.

buntang mata dia.

rupa-rupanya, kawan dia nama pun nama syira jugak. she greeted her friend not me lah. malu!


moral of the lesson:
senyum sikit-sikit je. kalau silap bolehla cover. ni ha tak sempat cover. kantoi, perasan.

=D

words have power

salam,

if you're just like me, (rajin baca muka buku =P) you'll know which issues i'm referring to. =) yeah, the latest one. the one that opens millions of eyes. the one that successfully wins zillions of humans' attentions. the one that is followed by billions of comments and thoughts. that shows how concern we are. 

my first impression upon watching the short video. fuhh, rude! 

listen!listen!listen!

its good to repeat so that people can hear you clearly but its rude to stop someone and humiliating her in front of the whole crowd. that's an unacceptable behaviour I've ever seen throughout my whole life. you can be a lecturer nor a prime minister but you have no power to do so.to humiliate people. to use the high tone intonation just to stress a few points that you think are right.

the adults shape the younger generations through modelling. she's not a good role model neither a good advisor, listener and adult. she can't be a leader. a leader must always act cool and realistic in whatever she/he is doing. 

orang Melayu kata:

'kerana pulut santan binasa, kerana mulut badan binasa'

kata-kata melambangkan kita. buruk yang keluar buruklah kita. ada beza, kata-kata seorang pemimpin dengan seorang pencacai. ada beza kata-kata orang yang faham erti 'menghormati' dan yang tidak faham. 

memang. yang muda haruslah bersopan santun dengan yang lebih tua. tapi tak bermaksud yang tua boleh mencerca dan menyiat nyiat hati si muda. hukum alam, yang muda menyantuni yang tua. yang sebenarnya, hormat menghormati sesama manusia tak kira usia, bangsa dan bangsa. 

jangan dibalas cerca dengan cerca.

sekarang masanya untuk berubah. ramai lagi di Malaysia yang kurang skill berkasih sayang dan hormat menghormati walau di media massa sering diwar-warkan kempen 'Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita'

'BUDI BAHASA, BUDAYA KITA'

nak berhujah dari segi matan ucapan takut banyak salah dari betulnya. mampu memerhati kesedaran moral dan sivik  yang nyata sangatla rapuh nipis. 

regards,

me

dream! dream! dream!

A dream doesn't become reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work.

-Colin Powell

salam,

chicken soup for the soul for women

premise 1: leaving A for B
premise 2: leaving B for C
can i just have all?
how if, in life, i want all?
i wanna be a succeed lady with degree, kids and a husband in between, master degree, phd and everything.

chicken soup for the soul for mothers
can i have all in life?
i have money, handsome spouse, good looking children, smart children, money, respect, holiday, maids, new handbags, beautiful skin, gorgeous in the eyes of my family members and all.

chicken soup for the soul for students (girls)
can i have all in life?
time, bombastic result, car, beautiful dress, up to date gadgets, attention in class, money, tolerable friends, wise, clever, all and everything that looks perfect in the eyes of human.

don't cheat and stop denying
it never comes across in my mind to have all those above in life. (abnormal)

the normal is to have all those in mind. dreaming of marrying a prince charming. i did that once when i was still young. now, its a waste of my sleeping time. i dream of something that only can turn out to be a reality.

to dream is never a crime yet its good. sort of motivation. but there's two types of dreaming. one that can turn to be a reality and the other one that's completely rubbish.

be off the total rubbish dreams. dream of something real and can turn to be a reality in life.

example:
once, i'm gonna hold a scroll.
once, i'm gonna jump and scream in the isle of snow.

p/s: one of my zillions of dreams comes true. alhamdulillah.

=P
till then, salam

growing old is mandatory

Age is whatever you think it is. You are as old as you think you are.

-Muhammad Ali 

salam,

me, my 4th sis and my 3rd sis

now,

there's no pic to compare 

but we're almost 15 years old  older. 

me-22

my 4th sis-24

my 3rd sis-25

!!!!!

(open-mouth grin)

i was, once, the shortest.

today, i'm the tallest

see, how time makes us grow taller by each and every year.

i win the growing taller game

yet, they win the growing matured fast game.

i don't want time to fly too fast

i don't want us to grow too fast.

soon, one by one will be leaving home for a better living

leaving the nucleus family for a yet to be a growing family.

please, not so soon.

till then,

wassalam

my sis's 25th birthday

salam,

thanks to the one who reminds me.
harapkan adik dia yang tengah layan demam memang lupa sangat

whatever it is, my only wish is to see my sister's years and years of happiness.
May Allah bless you always in every ways.

i pity myself. i forgot my own sister's age. i thought she's celebrating her 24th birthday yet i was one year too late. she's already 25. grr. how time flies.

till then,
salam

not feeling well

salam,

Qulna ya naar kuuni bardan wa salaaman ala Ibrahim (nama anak)

i found this dua  from here. 

letihnya demam.

Monday stories

• kaki terseliuh after a long while
• i feel so tired when i've to walk to and fro from one class to another. rasa nak nangis
• it was 4 pm when i finally had time for lunch. guess what? i found lipas dalam plastik air. 
• May Allah ease my journey tomorrow.

the one I admire

Tomorrow hopes we have learned something from yesterday.

-John Wayne

salam,

deep in her eyes, she's trying hard to be strong and patient. looking into her eyes, i bet everyone would have the same thing in mind. never in my whole life, i met anyone like her. her patient and positiveness inspired me. i would wanna be like her.

when it was time for her to speak out, i couldn't hold my tears no more coz i know that she's holding back her tears and she's trying to look cool. if i were her, i couldn't stay cool and relax and happy as her. the fact that i'm still and forever sick would stick in the inner side of me and hunt me for no reason but that's not her. there's no time for her to grieve for what had happened and still happening to her now and then.

to her, that was just a test. it really was a test but the fact that she could be such cool and positive made me proud of her. she's an ordinary woman.

i turned to someone next to me just to confirm whether the brain operation is considered as major or minor operation. the doc to be told me a fact that brain controls our body system and the small damage may cause our whole life. so, the answer for my qualm was major operation. =). yes, the one that i highlighted here was having a major operation which might affect her whole life. her calmness shadowed her illness.

looking into her eyes was more than enough to make me realize that i could be like her if i want t.o. the illness made her strong. i dun want the illness just to make me strong and be as patient as her coz me myself not sure whether i could face it calmly and positively like her. i  just want to highlight here that sometimes, we need such friend to make us realize how bless we are.

she's fighting not only for her normal life but also for us. for He will never test us with something that we are not capable to. 

Ya Syafi, make my girl strong.

malam tu kami tadabbur surah maryam. semakin lama tadabbur surah tu semakin rasa yang kesabaran dia mungkin tak sehebat kesabaran dan ketakwaan Maryam r.a tapi dia mencontohi kesabaran Maryam r.a. Ada yang tersembunyi di sebalik tangisan dan dugaan.  Yang terlalu istimewa diluar daya penglihatan dan pemikiran manusia. 

16. Dan bacakanlah (wahai Muhammad) di dalam Kitab Al-Quran ini perihal Maryam, ketika dia memencilkan diri dari keluarganya di sebuah tempat sebelah timur.

17. Kemudian Maryam membuat dinding untuk melindungi dirinya dari mereka maka Kami hantarkan kepadanya: Roh dari kami lalu ia menyamar diri kepadanya sebagai seorang lelaki yang sempurna bentuk kejadiannya.

18. Maryam berkata: Sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepada (Allah) Ar-Rahman daripada (gangguan) mu kalaulah engkau seorang yang bertaqwa.

19. Ia berkata: "Sesungguhnya aku pesuruh Tuhanmu, untuk menyebabkanmu dikurniakan seorang anak yang suci".

20. Maryam bertanya (dengan cemas): Bagaimanakah aku akan beroleh seorang anak lelaki, padahal aku tidak pernah disentuh oleh seorang lelaki pun, dan aku pula bukan perempuan jahat?

21. Ia menjawab: "Demikianlah keadaannya tak usahlah dihairankan; Tuhanmu berfirman: Hal itu mudah bagiKu; dan Kami hendak menjadikan pemberian anak itu sebagai satu tanda (yang membuktikan kekuasaan Kami) untuk umat manusia dan sebagai satu rahmat dari Kami; dan hal itu adalah satu perkara yang telah ditetapkan berlakunya.

22. Maka Maryam hamilah mengandungnya, lalu ia memencilkan diri dengan kandungannya itu ke sebuah tempat yang jauh.

23. (Ketika ia hendak bersalin) maka sakit beranak itu memaksanya (pergi bersandar) ke pangkal sebatang pohon tamar (kurma); ia berkata alangkah baiknya kalau aku mati sebelum ini dan menjadilah aku sesuatu yang dilupakan orang dan tidak dikenang-kenang!

24. Lalu ia diseru dari sebelah bawahnya:" Janganlah engkau berdukacita (wahai Maryam), sesungguhnya Tuhanmu telah menjadikan di bawahmu sebatang anak sungai.

25. Dan gegarlah ke arahmu batang pohon tamar itu, supaya gugur kepadamu buah tamar yang masak.

26. "Maka makanlah dan minumlah serta bertenanglah hati dari segala yang merunsingkan. Kemudian kalau engkau melihat seseorang manusia, maka katakanlah: Sesungguhnya aku bernazar diam membisu kerana (Allah) Ar-Rahman; (setelah aku menyatakan yang demikian) maka aku tidak akan berkata-kata kepada sesiapapun dari kalangan manusia pada hari ini".

(Maryam 19: 16-26)

wassalam.

see what's in my brain

salam,

don't let me unread. =P

falling in love into knitting world. oh, oh! ecstacy. just before i came back to start my new sem, mak said 'sempatka nak mengait time kat sana'. to which i replied 'i think i will have more than enough time but let's see first'. for now, i would say, i have more than enough time coz  each and everyday since the first day i'm here, i never skip knitting be it before i go into my fantasy world or after class.believe me, you will make it a reality if you really love it. being me,i know, it's not going to be long. there will be something else that might bother and crave my interest sooner or later. heheheh! It takes only less than 15 minutes to finish off one simple project which i find it awesome. i made four bracelets for me and on the way to finish a ' drinkware cover (pelapik)'.

reading is quite a tough journey when you have someone to talk to. i have my room mate and we spent most of our time getting up to date to our two-months -holidays' gossips. but, my journey needs my intention in reading. well, i want to prove to our prime minister that he doesn't need any helps from the outsiders coz soon, there will be a throng of English teachers waiting to serve their nation and to improve the level of English in his land. 

grrr, his decision makes me upset and i believe, most of my cliques may have the same feeling too. my only hope is may Najib turn down his plan and give us, the future English teachers some hopes that we're also capable and able to improve the level of English in our  own country without having to waste money and time hiring someone else who know nothing about the our cultures and our future generations' needs.

 rasa nak gigit telinga orang yang nak ambil guru dari india sedangkan ramai lagi cikgu bi yg daebak nak keluar mengajar. 

its good to have someone, who really know about education and the needs of future generation mainly in education, to discuss and cruise in the same ship in decision making. 

till the, wassalam

3/01/13

salam,

alhamdulillah, thumma alhamdulillah
gayat! ibaratnya macam orang yg phobia tempat tinggi kena paksa naik tingkat 44.
dah sampai ke tingkat 44, haruslah berjalan walaupun pening, takut, rasa nak muntah dan sebagainya.
tak kan nak suruh orang tolak dengan kerusi roda sedangkan masih mampu berjalan cuna halangannya 'cuak'
hihihihi. alhamdulillah, dah dua hari berjalan. lemah lembut je berjalan kali ni.hari pertama kelas pun dah mengantuk.  bukan sebab bosan tapi letih kemas barang. hari pertama di sesi terakhir kelas, baru terdetik rasa 'setahun dah betul-betul berlalu lagi la'.

365 hari yang lepas. alhamdulillah, berjaya diharungi. tadi dapat berita gembira lagi. alhamdulillah. segalanya bukan senang dan segalanya bukan susah. bukan susah dan bukan senang. jadi, untuk jadikan bukan susah, haruslah berusaha sehingga tiada lagi mampu sambil meminta dan berdoa pada Al-Wahhab. sebenarnya, ini soal result. hehehe

terdetik di hati:

hasil tekun membaca muka buku, terjumpa ini, dikongsi oleh seorang senior,

Daripada Abu Hurairah RA juga daripada Nabi SAW sabdanya, “Hinalah kemudian, hinalah kemudian, hinalah (bagi) mereka yang sempat hidup bersama dengan salah seorang daripada ibu bapanya atau kedua-duanya sekali ketika mereka tua sedangkan dia tidak dapat masuk syurga (dengan sebab itu)”. -Riwayat Muslim-

=) matan hadis yang sangat mudah untuk difahami bagi pendapat saya. 

mudahnya mendapat syurga sebenarnya kan. jalan terbentang dan dibentang luas di pandangan kita. caranya pelbagai. itu cara apabila berada dengan ibu bapa. berbakti, menyenangkan hati dan mendoakan mereka. dush! belum lagi cara apabila menuntut ilmu. infinity cara.

berapa ramai yang berkata inginkan syurga tapi berapa ramai sahajalah yang berusaha untuknya. 

nota hari kedua di alaf baru 2013. 

di kala semua orang berseronok dengan azam baru.

masih termanggu mencari signifikasi 2013 dengan diri. 

2013,

berlalulah dengan tenang setenang air di muara

pun sekiranya ada kepayahan yang menghempas seganas ombak menghempas pantai

ku dambakan kesabaran sebagai bentengnya. 

=)

nak gelak! haahahahaha

nak nangis!wuaaaaaaaa

till then, 

wassalam