Saturday, 27 October 2012

Aidiladha 1433H


Taqabbal Allahu minna wa minkum 
(May Allah accept [the fast and worship] from us and from you) - Ameen.

salam,

dalam-dalam takut nak exam, sempat lagi berhari raya. 

"menyambut kemenangan umat islam, mengenang pengorbanan Nabi Allah Ibrahim dan anaknya Ismail. mencontohi Siti Hajar, lambang wanita sejati yang taat kepada suami dan perintah Allah. Segala kesukaran, kepahitan, keresahan yang ditempuh Siti Hajar bersama anaknya kecilnya, Ismail ketika ditinggalkan Nabi Ibrahim di tengah-tengah padang pasir kontang, adalah lambang kesetiaan dan kepatuhan seorang isteri kepada peraturan suaminya."
it was just an ordinary day. me , my baby sister and mak went to the mosque. the prayer started at 8.30am. normally, we always preferred to perform solat sunat at the nearest musolla but my mak wanted to listen to the khutba recitation  recited by my father. its his turn there. iA, kalau rajin, will do the sharing on the main points highlighted in the khutba' recitation.

went back to my grandmother's house in Kedah in the afternoon. 

as usual, foods and festival couldn't be separated. =)

no pictures taken bc soon after we came back from the not so near mosque, we changed our suit from the gorgeous one to the ordinary maid suit. =P.

Salam Aidiladha buat yang jauh dan yang dekat
selamat bertunang buat geng budu
selamat menjadi puan buat sahabat senegeri

regards, 
me


Wednesday, 24 October 2012

take five

I'M NOT GONNA BUY THAT..I CAN MAKE IT!!!

salam,
it was last semester when the craziness to knit hit me.
it lasts only for few weeks before i stopped and lost the wool and the stitch.
tapi sempat jadi bunga sekuntum. jadila!
bunga kenangan pun hilang.
kenangan ja xhilang sebab ada dalam blog ni.
sekarang, rasa nak sambung tapi cari xjumpa dah. cari kat google share kat blog. jadi lah!
hari ni pukul 1.08 am rasa nak sew la nak knit la.

impian nak jahit baju sendiri malam ni. suatu ketika nanti.
orang kata xyah pi kelas zaman sekarang ni.
tengok tutorial ja.
seronoknya tapi sapa nak bagi mesin.
hahaha..angan mat jenin je la.


padahal sakit kepala translate buku melayu ke Inggeris. hahaha.
ambil lagi colonial language.

sungguh ka ni?
acecehh. berangan sambil menikmati green tea!!


counting days to the final semester 4 exam. seronok sungguh counting walau buku tak habis baca lagi.
semangat itu penting kan!!

bittaufeeq syahira!!



repekan malam...
1.20am
Wednesday
Coombee Hill =P
















Sunday, 21 October 2012

exam fever

“Striving for success without hard work is like trying to harvest where you haven’t planted.” ~ David Bly

salam,



how nice!!=P

do not turn back if you don't want the 100gsm paper with the rector sign on the bottom right of it..argghh!!!




May Allah ease!!Aamin!!








a complete two years done by the end of this dis,iA. two years left. lompat..lompat..lompat! Permudahkanlah.  che nak gheja ni. xlarat buat esaimen dah. sakit pala..

till then,
















Sunday, 14 October 2012

Foster Fostee program

salam,

kalau diam membisu tu mesti ada isinya..tapi tak bisu sangat pun ada isinya..

isinya ialah dapat ibu n ayah lagi satu..ayat bagi suspicious sikit

Lois Lowry kata,“The worst part of holding the memories is not the pain. It's the loneliness of it. Memories need to be shared.” 

one day has passed but the memory will linger forever.

we had a three days and two days visit to kampung damak, sg bayor, selama and  it was such a priceless opportunity. it went beyond of my expectations.this activity was a must activity. every teacher trainee had to join it in order to fulfill the degree requirements. they called it bina insan guru. we called it 'rahsia' =P.

it was such a blessings getting to join this activity. meeting with lots of new people. getting to know and experience kampung life. breath in the fine, fresh air. it lead to an indescribable feelings. it mixed. sad and happy. it was not easy when it was time to say goodbye. knowing the reality that it would be the end of our journey as their foster babies. we were well fed. they even prepared us lunch boxes. huhuhu.

on the way to the school, our bus bumped to a herd of cows crossing the road. my friends shouted 'lembu tengah jalan'. some were laughing. some were peeping through the windows. everyone was very excited cum delighted including me though that was not my first time being there. it was part of my hometown, so, it should be a familiar sightseeing aite. haha. as we arrived, the villagers were all looking at us. ni tak perasan. i could read from the water face. their eyes told thousand things. i had had such experience when i was schooling  in a rural primary school in bandar baharu. the fish smell welcomed us. haha. its a true village. the cow dungs were everywhere. no one would scold them. its their kampung too. they had the privilege to poo on the road or wherever they felt happy to fulfill the nature's call urge. haha. goats were everywhere. i saw a flock of chicken and ducks walked side by side. bestfriend. kalau ada tangan mesti jalan sambil pegang tangan gitu.

mixing with the villagers. they were very pure. you could see the sincereness and happiness from their eyes. their words and their warm welcomed made us feel like we were home. some parents were kind enough to wait for their three days babies in front of the school gate when its time to go home.oh, i'm so jealous. tapi tak kan nak suruh mai foster parents tunggu luar skolah. dia kan cikgu. in my case, i had two new baby sisters. they even waited for me when its time to go home. both of the cute sisters would kind enough to follow my steps and asking me 'buat apa? sambil sengih'.

the first days went well. we arrived one hour early. they welcomed us like pengantin baru tau. siap dato' datang launced our big program opening ceremony. what a day! terkejut jugak. dato' datang rasmi program kecik je. they were time when all of us was very nervous. hihih. macam nak tunggu calon suami. actually, it was the time when the host announced our partner and foster parents.i got an Indian lady.she's my course mate and i knew her well but not so well.i was a bit frustrated with the arrangement bc only two of us, me and Laila, were paired up with non Malays. But, that's not the reason for me to stop cheering up the day. what made even feel even more and most frustrated was our foster parents did not turn up and it happened to we had no foster parents.luckily, there was a kind man who was very kind to accept us. he's Mr Zaa'ba n Madam Najah. to make a story short, the teacher brought us home. our three days home. he was a guru cemerlang. he spoke English with us. he had nine children. three in darul quran, the second one is a doctor, one in Mesir, one managed to get straight 11 As and two in UIA. sangat hebat! he was a soft spoken man. He dressed like an ustaz but he's not. He's a sifu in English in that school. He often shared his experiences with us. one thing that made me adore him was the way he spoke. from the way he discussed things, i knew that he was an experienced man. keluarga yang penuh dengan kesederhanaan dan taat. i wish i could be like both of my foster parents in educating children and in all positive aspects. ameen.

the second day was a bit tiring. our scheduled was fully packed with lots of activities. some of my friends were started to beg for more days cz their foster parents looked reluctant to release them home. yeah!knowing the reality that the day after that was the final day. we could feel the throbbing pain from the inner side!most of us were already felt in love to the environment, the community, lata and everything there. that differed village and town. the friendly community. the activity started at 7.30 and ended at 6 in the evening. we had outdoor and indoor games in the morning as well as motivational session  for year 4 and year 5 students and viva micro for year 5 students. at the same time, we had to do the mural painting. patient, collaboration, team work and everything could be pictured by the work done. alhamdulillah, we did it in half day. it was a hectic day but the happiest day ever. looking the students faces. they were all very excited to join whatever activities prepared for them. they were very excited. their smiling faces melted my heart. their accent made me elated when my energy barometer was about to show its low battery sign. they were very skillful at catching for fishes and lots of other aquatic lives. for year 6, they had to decorate their aquarium with not only beautiful decorations but also variety of aquatic lives. one of my friends who was incharged of this session told me how shame XY was when the pupils corrected her "cikgu, pacat tak hidup dalam air"hahaha..sorry, pupils. we were not used to all that and that's why we knew less about aquatic lives. the won in survival live.

how to find for leech? " its just an easy weezy job. letak kaki tepi sungai. datangla lintah " kata budak hingusan. unvbelievable right. yang lagi 2 tahun nak dapat degree pun tak tahu. the caught not only anak ikan biasa2.anak ikan todak sungai, ikan keli n mcam2 lagi. ada yang punyalah besar. mmg skillful. lintah punyalah panjang dan sihat pun ada. udang sungai yang siap ada sepit pun ada. hebat sungguh lah!

i was responsible to conduct the indoor games with a few of my indoor games group mates. seven pebbles was enough to make them happy. xyah i pad bagai. they just loved the seven pebbles. they called it batu seremban. they taught me how to play 'tip top'. tip top  was a skill to multiply the points. i still remember and would love to forever put him in my long term memory. Muhaimin, was the one who dared to compete with me. excited sangat! nak lawan cikgu.haha. nak lawan main congkak je pun. i could see his water face changing when he was nearly lose the game over me. haha. sebab takut dia nangis, i main tipu bagi kalah.haha. kalau budak tu budak jugak.haha.xnak kalah. kalau orang dewasa ni, dewasa jugak. berkorban demi budak kecil. hahahahah. perasan sikit.

torang canteen was kind enough to sponsor our lunch. ikan bakar n ulam. yummilicious.

to be surprised, the school was on holiday from any p&ps for one day. they were kind enough to set a day activities for us to conduct. we were in charged of the students for half day. letih tapi best!!

on the evening, we had the outdoor games with the foster parents. i took that opportunity to walk and enjoyed the wondrous and breathtaking view of tali air. the journey was quite tough as i had to pass through the natural traps. haha. cow dungs. erk..layan je. bukan selalu. haha

the final day,
deep in my heart. i wouldn't wanna leave this village. i had made a promise to myself that i'm gonna come back soon. it's my mom's hometown but i'm not used to it. not too often we visited this village. that's why i could not picture how exciting it could be. how beautiful and fresh. the community was very friendly despite of the special accent. their accent made them different. they way they greeted us made me fall in love to the village.

we were having the closing ceremony on the final day. sirih pulang ke gagang. the foster family sent us home. its a tough time to untie the bonding that we had built even it was only within a short three days.

till we meet again little cutie pies, majidah and athirah.

thanks for the kindness
thanks for the warm welcomed
thanks for the beautiful experiences
thanks for the memory!!!

regards,
me






Wednesday, 10 October 2012

WW

salam,

dear ichiro,


regards,
me



sudah cukup cukup berani....

salam,

I, now can drive.

i feel free like a bird flying over mountains

















federal road je pun. .errkkk..

it takes years to master.

lepas ni buleh bawak lori.

bulan sepuluh memang banyak kenangan.
nanti bila dah tua, iA kalau sempat menua..
boleh cerita dekat anak cucu..
oktober penuh sejarah

nenek/ummi/mak/mummy/cikgu/kakak/mak cik/ nyang
pandai drift bulan sepuluh
tuuutttt bulan sepuluh
teeetttt bulan sepuluh
mungkinkah akan berkahwin bulan sepuluh???
aip..dush2.panggg. gedebushhh
teaser =P

what a significant month.=)

teringat pesanan geng bulatanoverjoy
kalau nak apa-apa
niat kena betul dulu

contoh:
nak berani drive..
kenapa????
sebab boleh jadi supir abuya ke..
kalau niat nak pegi berjimba..
susah sikit nak boleh

terbukti pun..sangat terbukti..
dulu-dulu,
lepas dapat lesen..selalu dok teringat..lepas ni boleh p makan McD, KFC dengan adik.
tak payah ajak kakak kakaku yang asyik nak duduk rumah je
dua tahun punya dok kumpul berani..
tak berani jugak

sekarang dah boleh!!!
alhamdulillah.
sebab baru pandai drive ala2 drift
seronok sangat nak balik rumah.
nak drive!
maklumla baru pandai....
ibarat toddler baru dapat kaki la.

till then, salam






Thursday, 4 October 2012

Pulau Aman

salam,

it was last sunday trip. a short trip. last minute planning. as usual. unplanned trip.  tak surprise sangatlah coz i knew that they would be coming to visit me tapi tk sangk nak pegi pulau pulaks.

the place was just near to my college. it took less than 15 minutes to arrive at the jetty. from the jetty, we took a boat and it cost only 6 ringgit per person ( to and fro).

it took less than 10 minutes journey by boat and yeehaaa!!!!! for the first time in my whole life..hoolaaa Pulau Aman. It was my first trip to Pulu Aman. For the rest of my life, I couldn't ever imagine that there would be a small island like that. maklumla! jarang jalan dekat pulau. there's nothing to be fascinated except the breathtaking scenery and the marvelous and super delicious mee udang. memang delicious even we didn't get the opportunity to try the famous mee udang in Pulau Aman. it's already late and the shop had already closed at three.

xpela, next time, mak kata nak datang lagi bawak tok..hihihihi. it's a small village. took only a few hours to round around the small village. there's a small school with very few number of students. according to my sister, last year, there was one of the UPSR candidates from that school got straight As. hebat kan!

while we were walking to the north of the village, we found a group of tourist who was busily digging a few holes and picked and threw something. we walked closer and surprisingly saw a plastic fulled of remis. they taught us how to dig and find it and excitedly we tried. we were not just trying for fun but we decided to collect till the plastic bag was fulled with remis. habisla species remis di tangan kami.

that's the ending of our short, simple and sweet journey to Pulau Aman.

very few pictures taken. that's the signal of we'll pay a visit again next time.










=). best sangat. alhamdulillah.

the one who dares not to dream big.

salam,

but still a big dreamer

met my lecturer just now and she said " do you wanna look at your assignments?". we nervously replied "yeah, opkos la nak"

when i first looked at my marks, i stopped for a while and turned to her. " why i got this mark?". she answered " you don't put any reference, how can i give you more" okay. no doubt.

the end.

she started her motherly babbling. you could be better. you should share with your friends. sometimes, i just wondered what have you learnt during your primary and secondary school? what makes you now? those were not rare. they often asked us. i think, when my time comes, i'll ask my students the same questions too.

too often we replied, we learned to memorize essay when we were in primary as well as in secondary. we never got a chance to love English. Some said, i think, those who did excellently in English during their school years were naturally good in English. hurm..this statement is being unfair to the English teachers out there.

my lecturer often said, our schooling system made us think English is a foreign language.this statement is always true.

before our conversation ended, she asked us to share with our friends, "what's your turning point to love English?"

..............

i can feel the urge in me to share coz i've such experience. i've experienced the turning point that makes who I am now. being me, the one who is still sad with the previous years and memories that bring me here. my only answer is the triple one nine .

it was three years ago when i really realized the importance of English in my life. if i ever have a chance, i would love to try to forget those memories. can i start it over again?can i do it over again so that i can hit my hopes and ambitions. i'm a very ambitious lady. i'm a big dreamer. i love dreaming. i wanna be somebody. i wanna be a law practitioner. i wanna rule the world.eyh2, tokleh2. human can't rule this world. since i was in secondary school, i had had a dream of living a life of my dream. the dreams left untouchable.

i cried when a few friends of mine told me that they had to attend for interviews. that was my dream.

the conclusion is "I've had the experience of heartbroken". i hate that feeling.

i still remember when my sister phoned me and she said "jangan sedih tau, hang xdapat pun k.da rasa". my hopes and dreams broke into pieces. i was not crying but deep inside me i hate myself. from that on, i dared not to dream big.

today, i know and i realise why the sponsorships dare not to waste their money for me.

how come they would easily spend their money to someone who gets C band in triple one nine.

looks, how English makes your life different.

i do believe in fate but there's always a reason why it happens.

sedih tak entri ni?hihihi

but i wont' give up. i'm going to rule my students. it has been 3 years since I call myself teacher. It has been 3 years since everywhere I go, people will call me 'cikgu'. hahaha. i just don't know what makes them call me teacher. not even once i wear name tag when i'm outside of school compound.

English is fun..

pengsan!!!










me, =)

Tuesday, 2 October 2012

one thing

salam,
i've been wanting to blog this for so long but it happens to be today is the day.


I've tried playing it cool
But when I'm looking at you
I can't ever be brave
'Cause you make my heart race


p/s:over kan. i know it. i'm overjoyed. coz i have that one thing.