i wish i could fly freely like a bird

i 

my version of free like a bird

I wish I could fly freely like a bird

no one will dare to stop me

got nothing to worry about

no traffic lights, free foods,  no cheaters, no haters

wake up early in the morning for foods

flying back to where i belong when its time to go back

i'll surely be happy for i own the freedom i wish

I wish I could touch the cool air

 breath of cool air

 no toxic gaseoes

 nothing to worry except for predators

but predators won't harm your small heart 

the worse thing they could do is eating the bird

or hurt it and left it all alone in a jungle

waiting for the day of rotten

I wish I could touch the sky 

and wonder His creations

the most beautiful creation

i wish and i wish and i wish

human will never stop wishing for they will never be happy with things that they have.

they want more but there're no attempts of trying to get it.

once they get whatever they wish.

everything changes

 

 halal turns to be haram

haram turns to be halal

 

its the reality of life

no one could change us except ourselves. 

be grateful with whatever you have now.

=)

wordly wednesday

salam,

just coming back from jitra kedah. its a long journey but full of memories. alhamdulillah, i get what i want. it takes a whole day for a simple decision of 'go or not to go'. well, i need to consider everything from top to toe. friends, homework, time management, the long journey, choral speaking practice, lots of never ending discussions and most of everything. dats life. student's life. soon, when you get married, there will be more to consider. just imagine, the idea of going comes only 15 minutes before the minute of departure. gelabah. class ends at 4.30. after class, struggling to search for my dear broadband. i lost him. my sleeping partner. my loyal helper.hurm. dunno where else i should go. hurm, a miserable wednesday. i nearly lost my mind. dunno where else i should go. i'm not sure when is my last time holding it and where is the location. its my first time bringing my broadband to the class and see what happen. maybe, my broadband hates to be in the tiny smelly hot lecture hall. perhaps,  my broadband decides to run away alone without asking my permission first or maybe, my prince charming is now waiting for me to return the broadband. hurm, pray for me.

so, unic is cool. i didn't take any pictures at all as i just bring my camera but sadly it's run out of battery. same goes to my dear phone. hurm. banyak dugaan today. halfway throughout the journey, i did sms my sister but sadly she's at home enjoying his nighty night. my first intention of going there is to mengendap my sister but sadly she is so lazy to come to the nasyid concert. so far, their voice ( i mean the three singers) is truly natural. not a fake one. they don't need any voice filter yet their voice is still as beautiful as in their video clips. =)

gooddddddd. my three ringgit is worth.

bumped to few of my juniors back in sbpikp. they are newbies but still they're my juniors. proud of them. brave enough to volunteer themselves to sing in front of thousands of audience. proudly say out their target in spm and their ambitions. i miss my school years. when its time to leave the hall. my eyes can't stop searching for a memorable bus. glancing at them. wow, they look happy, they're just like me when i was in school. happy always and got nothing to worry.

dats it.=)

TRYING

IS A KEY OF SUCCESS

a very determined boy.he will do whatever he wanna do. dun stop me or you want me to stop you or munch ur yummy flesh, pull your hair or even slap ur back.hehe. i admire him for his great determination. always wanna try a new thing without worry except firecrackers. can be very active sometimes. cute and soft spoken toddler. his beautiful eyelashes, his sloppy kiss, his Spanish slang, his natural perfume. well kids..anak syurga kan.

teslraya

salam,
salam aidilfitri maaf zahir&batin.
an unforgettable memories I should say. it's our first time hosting this kind of event. i mean my cohort. it's been a tradition for teslian to have this kind of feast. personally i think having or not having this, its not a big deal actually. raya is still raya. hosting it is not as easy as what I always think last year when i joined my senior throughout their last minutes preparation at whatever hotel ntah (forgive me, i forgot the hotel's name). i was just a functionless ajk for decoration team. they did most of everything. my job was agree/disagree and perfect/no. now only i realize how hard is it. how challenging is it. hosting an event in a hotel will never been easy in my diary of life. we'll have experienced it. sometimes, i feel like giving up joining my friends hosting that kind of event but that is part of life.there's nothing easy in this life.next is our juniors turn. wait and see. what's going to happen to them. it's almost time for them to endure the headache and everything due to the two to three hours event :)

so far, this event marks my last hari raya feast/party for this year. raya feast? might be my last time. kowt..just wait until next year, remind me if i still go on even i have nearly decided not to join any event. i've not too much pictures as i'm quite busy that day. layan je those two chosen pictures.

a teacher is also

 

 a coach

 

an orchestra leader

 

a motivator

 

a team member

Guru adalah awan indah terbang rendah,
melimpahkan hujan pada musim gersang,
menyegarkan benih ilmu, berbuah hikmah;
ia renjis embun pada tanah bakat,
suara ihsan ketika manusia kalah,
sepi yang syahdu dalam dunia resah.

(A.Samad Said)

 

on time

salam...

y'll never ever appreciate your time unless u've a very short and limited quality time in a day.that's what i feel today. having to experience today's challenges is more than enough to make me realize the reality of time is golden. yes, time will never wait for us or anyone. time will never discriminate or segregate us. no matter how beautiful or ugly or clever or dumb you are. time will never wait for you. it'll move and move and no turning back for time. If ever you pray for time to go slow and always wait for you. you are actually hopeless. you should not pray for the time to move slowly but pray for yourself. you should pray for your own self to change and realize how fast time flies and how important it is in our daily life.

a beautiful pop up card to remember

salam,

just a simple sharing. a pop up card from my dearest roommate.:) posting it here. capturing this  at 2.12 am while doing some works.

a beautiful card to remember. :)..later when i have lots of free time, i'll post my other cards here. hihi..:).at least if i lost it all, i'll still have this blog to make me remember things like this.

raya lagi

salam..

sebulan syawal dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya..

datangnya setahun sekali..

begitu juga ramadan..

jika sayang kepada ramadan ibaratnya seperti sayang ibu kepada anaknya.

nak melepaskannya pergi terasa perit sekali..

sayangku pada syawal xkurang hebatnya tapi xsetanding sayangku pada ramadan. :)

sisa syawal digunakan sebaik mungkin. 

open house sini sana..

jamuan keraian...

sampai nyaris lupa ada lagi sisa puasa 6 yang perlu dilunaskan..:)

my 'birth' day

salam,

today, 15th September 2011 marks my 20. entering a new version of age. it starts with 2 and the ending is still as young as 0. if you read from the right side, i'm now 20. but if you choose to read from the left side, i'm now 02 years old. never mind. both are still young. what 20 means to me?

i'm no longer a baby girl to my mom coz i'm now adults. at this age, i should be able to make my own decision in life. no more pouting. no more crying. no more fighting. should be more matured in terms of making whatever decisions. i should have my own plan and aims in life. should not talk about marriage now. later is better. multiple up iman n amal as that is the only purpose of life which is to be a better muslim.for the entire of my life, not even once i meet with someone who is hoping to be worse than before. everyone is hoping to better. believe me, we're not going to be better without doing something. everyone can say but not everyone can do. do whatever you are saying. if you are hoping and you wanna be better. strive for it. hit your wagon and drive your maximum energy and power for whatever you wish in life. make it reality. so, who is a better muslim?

"A muslim is a muslim because he seeks Allah's approval and that is the most important trait that makes a muslim different from all other human in this world."

"A Muslim is a person who grasps that Allah has power over all things and that death is not an end but a transition to the real abode of man (the hereafter). Aware of these facts, he carefully avoids building his life on a "crumbling precipice." He turns to Allah, aware that He is the real Owner and Creator of life, death and what lies beyond. In this system created by Allah, he comprehends that wealth, social status or good looks are not the means that lead man to success; they are only "causes" operating under the rules laid down by Allah, which are effective for only a brief period of time."

(Devoted to Allah: Harun Yahya)


 a week before this beautiful date finally comes to visit me,

i'm not excited to celebrate by new version of age. i'm scared coz i'm gonna be old. older than yesterday. i'll keep growing old and there will be no turning point for me to turn back whenever i feel scared or cannot catch up with everything that's going on now. that's life.


How do I celebrate my birthday?

No birthday celebration coz i'm not used to it since i was young. praise be to Allah for sending me a great family and friends. they cheer up my birthday with thousands of prayers and wishes. having them as part of my life is the most wonderful thing in my life. thanks for the presents to those who susah2 buy, wrap and give it to me. i'll surely appreciate it.thanks for the remembrance. thanks for the surprise. thanks for the songs. thanks for the video.

a special thanks to my parents, i'm who i'm now because of you both.thanks for the endless prayers. thanks for the endless love. thanks for your support. thanks for raising me up. thanks for everything.

this special song is specially dedicated for both of you..

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

i'm no longer a baby for i'm now a 20 years old lady...

perjalanan untuk menjadi seorang pendidik

salam,

orang kata perjalanan nak jadi seorang guru tu mudah.
memang mudah untuk dapatkan title seorang 'guru'.
yang susahnya adalah nak dapatkan title seorang guru yang benar-benar mendidik, mengajar, mengubah, memberi contoh, ikhlas, sabar dan baik kata-katanya.

first day

 cikgu mengajar kat depan.yang dua orang ni main kat belakang. :).budak2..sabar itu indah tapi bayangkan kalau dalam kelas tu ada sepuluh yang macam ni..seorang cikgu vs 34 orang murid.

kalau jurutera bina bangunan, cikgu bina manusia.kalau doktor ubat luka. cikgu ajar untuk elak daripada terluka. bangunan xpandai berbicara.manusia yang terluka tapi tinggi budi bahasa xkan menggunakan bahasa yang luar biasa bila musibah menimpa..guru oh guru,,tugasnya mendidik manusia. dari yang kurang terdidik.matlamatnya mendidik sehingga terdidik. dari yang tidak kenal ABC dan alif baa taa, dididiknya sehingga ABC dan alif baa taa menjadi sebahagian daripada diri mereka yang dahulunya tidak tahu tulis baca. dididiknya sikap tolong menolong, dididiknya sikap hormat menghormati, si comot yang menhampiri mereka, diusap manja dengan harapan besar nanti menjadi manusia yang berguna. Tidak ada istilah kau busuk, kau comot, jauhi gurumu. jika polis menjadi barisan pertama pertahanan negara, guru menjadi salah satu barisan pertama selain ibu bapa barisan pertama pendidikan seorang manusia. dicoraknya dengan corakan yang indah dengan penuh warna warni. matlamatnya untuk melihat kain yang dicorak itu menjadi lebih indah dari hari ke hari dan bukan hanya kekal dengan corak yang lama. mulianya kau guru..:)

once upon a time, in a village by a small town

salam,

it happened yesterday but the trauma last until today and will stay forever in me. it took less than a minute for the incident to happen. less than a minute to scratch the front part of the avanza. i was so shocked. confused.   my first word after the tragedy happened was 'Allah, what should I '.instead of crying i smiled to myself.peeped through the rear-view mirror." omg ,they are coming. the owner of the poor house.the neighbours." (cuak) haha. lucky me and the owner of the house, instead of banging the house, i banged their house fence but pity the avanza. i'm so sorry. the tragedy left him a clear damage. not a serious damage but its more than enough to make my father's car look like a 'comot' car. actually, my father's car used to scratch  and bengkak benjul but this time i did more than bengkak benjul. i did both. :(. the incident left me trauma and up till now, i haven't tell the truth to my father. I know he might be a little bit confused and shocked + angry but i know my father more than anyone. but still i'm not yet ready to tell him the real truth. wait for a suitable time. i need to be prepared and ready before the blabbering sessions start.before the never ending advice sessions from both mr and mrs ismail starts. :)..pray for me eyh.

raya 'in the making'

salam,

 the making of 'eid mubarak 2011'..top hot goreng pisang..

venue : home sweet home

salam aidilfitri maaf zahir batin from us 'ismail and co' 

venue: kg permatang kerat telunjuk

venue : kuala ketil

venue: kubu/sg kechik ulu

eid mubarak

salam,

i hope its still not too late for me to wish  you all happy eid mubarak. may this syawal bring us happiness and enjoy ur holiday to the fullest. forget about gaining weight or what so ever related to it. just eat and put aside your weighing machine. raya comes once in a year and you have another 11 months to shed ur weight and get back to ur dreamed shape. thats what i do. i eat just like a big belly monster.enjoying the foods like there is no tomorrow. lepaking with my siblings and sepupu sepapat just like we haven't met for years.

this year is a little bit different from last few years. after 20 years, for the first time in my life, i meet him. my mom's brother. my pak lang.dunno his name but the only thing i know is he's now living in Pahang and work as a navy. my first day of syawal is at home and we are heading back to my mom's hometown in Kedah to visit my tok. convoy to Kuala Ketil on the the second Syawal to visit my nephew mamat in the afternoon.
hectic but the feelings is indescribable. it happens only once in a year. non stop entertaining the tetamu. air termanis terkurang gula. perfect. kuih raya finished on the second of syawal. those who are late, gigit jari cicah air. its a priceless experience actually. now only i know and i realize how xbest raya as an adult. no more duit raya.people are expecting duit raya from you coz u're now adults. no more jalan2 kutip duit raya in order to avoid the cepu emas questions.bila nak abis blaja?bila nak kawin?omg!!!pening.

just ask me, what foods i have not try? i'll proudly answer.  i have tried most of everything..rendang laksa nasi ayam kuah kacang ketupat nasi himpit etc.:)..gain 1 kg..perfect.so, one of the aims for puasa 6 is to shed the one kg.

 

happy eid mubarak from me and my family