i miss my mum..my uya..my homet0wn..my sisters..my nephew..i wanna go home.. release my tension..i got so much trouble on my mind..so much..i really need some rest..i wanna go somewhere and i dont care where..i dont mind at all..i just wanna shout really really loud..as loud as i can. i have a lot of bad thoughts in my head and I can hardly breathe. I need to shout it all out and clear it all from my small hard disk..pity her..my brain is just as small as my thumb but my problem..its hard for me to describe it..I am overwhelmed with lots of problem..but i dunn0 whats the problem??i keep trying to forget it..let it go from my mind..let it flies with the wind..but i cant.its hard to forget it.life is hard..its really hard for me n its a hard life living here..let me try to be sincere..babbling..complaining..crying..hating..loving..forgiving..trying..studying..failure..succeed..that's my life now.my routine..everyday.my lecturers will get into my class n give us some advice..its a routine.some of em will get angry with us.i dunno why...maybe b'coz of our behavior..i know..there are a lot of reasons why they did it.i can accept it..i start to digest it..accept it..love it..miss it..it makes me realize my mistakes..makes me become more matured from day to day..but it happens everyday..they are comparing us with others..i know they are trying to make us realize our mistakes..thakz my dear lecturers..but how..i cant see it..i cant see we'll change..please my dear friends..wake up!!lets' migrate together..make em proud of us..be active..change our bad behaviour..think about our future..i'm really sad when one of my lecturers said ' i cant see ur future'..why??we're trying to improve..give us chance..we wanna be as active, clever , polite as our senior..but how..lead us..plz!!
I wanna go h0me!!wanna go home!!i can still remember when i was in form 5..every month..its a routine for me..pack up my things..g0 home..its a must or else i cant concentrate in my studying..i dont mind what people will say..i manje..thats me..homesick..thats me..until now..when i'm thinking about this, i start to realize something..ALLAH knows my weaknesses.. when i was in secondary school..i always pray to HIM..i wanna go far away from my mom..i keep mention it in front of my mom n sis..i wanna go far away from all of u.i wanna study far..work far from all of u...i dunno why..but deep in my heart.. i cant..2 weeks away from home..i start to miss all of em' esp my mom..huhu..luckily, i got kmpp..it just takes about 1 hour form my home to arrive there..same goes to maktab..bout 1hour n ++ from my home..later, when i wanna get married..i'll make sure..my hubby org dkat2 je..xlbeyh 1oo km..lg dkat lg best..xyah berebut nk balik kg..huhu...mission to be completed****
ooOPps..since i'm not going back to my hometown this week, i'll go somewhere..pc fair..yuuhuu..i've planned my budget..i wanna find something.. i cant announce it yet until i get it..later i'll announce it..but it's not really expensive..it's very important for me..i've mnabung for a quite a long time to get it..i'll buy it..if not tomorrow..later i'll get it..must..
**i've deleted my previous post..there's alo of mistakes there..i'll post a new one..special for my cute lil sister..
~smile to the world~
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