heyya hoii!!

today, i would like to talk about expectation. macam mat lutfi. lol!

today, i feel like a radio. talking to the playful kids. oh no! at that moment, i wished i could engulf them. i wished i could sign a resignation letter telling the big boss that this job did not meet my expectation. lol sangaaaat. pastu nak keje ape?

guys, please think wisely before you end up being a teacher. hahaha! there will be no u turn button. no matter how nak temuntah u might feel, you just have no choice. facing the same clients who goes to school with toys in their bags. hahahahaha! who always forget to bring books and do homework. bukankah terasa ingin lempang?

tapiiii, their innocent faces always forbid me from moving to the next crazy level. akhirnya, this new teacher will say, malam ni sambung buat ye sayang!

uwaaaaaaa.............

my permanent prayer from the first day i became a teacher is Ooo Allah, give me patient and passion. without them, i would probably have been typing a resignation letter now. hahahahaha.

lol!

how about you, geng cikgu? don't you feel the same?

perhaps, this feeling lasts for awhile only.....hihihi

she who finds a friend, finds a treasure.

assalamualaikum,

auuuuwwww, catching up with life and work. it's never been easy. i'm now counting to retirement..haha.

workloads..... juggling with thousands of personalities....susahnya. hanya Allah tau.

i'm a normal human who hates working during weekends. tell me how to avoid when it keeps on coming. i truly believe that works should end at your workplace. home is where you can have well rest after a busy day. buttt, not in this career.

embrace! i hope one day, my husband is financially stable to support our little family. so, this future mummy can quit her job and focus on family. hahahah. dream on! why not? haritu nak reja sangat. hahahaha.

apa apa pon..alhamdulillah.

heyy!!

assalamualaikum,

i'm back after a long hiatus. peace no war.  let's do some catching up. i was posted last month. two days ago marked my first monthversary as a teacher. yess, i'm now a teacher for real. i job that i hated so much five years ago. hahaha. i kept on repeating to my cliques that i wanted to enrol myself in any u in malaysia for another degree in law. ewahh. over kannn. that was the crazy part of me.

i'm now a matured lady. things changed. so do i. my first posting is in johor bahru and i'm still struggling to love and enjoy this journey. one month has passed and this is the hardest start ever. i'm far away from my loved ones n i miss them like hell.

to tell the truth, if i could choose, i would love to quit my job now and marry a handsome rich guy. haha. haritu nak keje sangat kannn!!! haha. marilah bersyukur.

let me tell you the reality of a new teacher. i felt so sad everytime i walked out of the classroom. i tried not to easily get mad and continuously babbling like a parrot. pity my babies. after all, they were just children.

like today, my year 5 pupils came in late. 20 minutes late. i started my class with shouting like a crazy lady. deep inside, i felt so sad. sedihnyaaaa!!! mesti diorang rasa miss syahira mental. i really need to learn how to make them respect me. i really really need to learn how to play with their emotions. n how to control my anger.

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oh! i moved out from my first rental house since last Saturday. i needed a big space for my things and my brain to work well.  extra privacy is needed, hence, extra monthly rental fee. pfttt. i needed a place of mine.

it was one of the hardest decision i'd ever make. why? because it involved friendship. it took me one week to decide. being me, i listed down a few reasons why i need my own space just to keep me firm with my decision. i was blessed with 6 good friends to ease the sadness of being far away from family. i couldn't ask more.

and, Allah gave me another two new sweet friends to walk along in this journey.

alhamdulillah, i met lots of good people here. Allah knows best.

please, keep me in your prayers. iA, soon, i'm moving to a new status. a new journey. heee. the one that i've been looking forward. the one that will decorate my future. the one that i always pray and dream of. may Allah ease. please, keep me i  your prayers, peeps.

xo,

hello!

assalamualaikum,

it's been some time since my last post. so many things happened in my life these days, from family matters to personal problems. iA, i would try to accept everything as part of life learning. life itself is a long, unguaranteed journey. there's no guarantee that your life will be as easy and smooth as you wished. there'll be ups and downs. fall and rise. laugh and tears. worry and happy. redha, sabar and solat are the key of going through all the tests and treats with succeed and down to earth.

my current position,
i'm still waiting for placement with patience. i need a job now coz my brain has been set towards that.

i'm a nanny. working full time at home. my job is just easy. waking up to a beautiful angel. defrost her milk and feed her. put her into sleep sometime when she decides to let me. yes, pandai memilih budak tu! opah possesses the best skill which i don't.

i rarely get the opportunity to go out and lepak, so no pics except the pictures of babies.

that's all.
pray for me.
pray for posting.
❤

 

that's all.

alhamdulillah

assalamualaikum,

alhamdulillah, after all the hardships, I finally received two good news in a week. All praises to Allah the Almighty, i passed my spp interview and my final exam to wrap up the five and a half years i spend in IPG to pursue my parents' dream to see their daughters becoming a teacher. yeah. the gene run in our blood

now, i'm currently waiting for placement. All praises to Allah s.w.t. Only He knows how happy I am right now. At least, I know that I've made my parents happy though deep in my heart, I feel like taking another degree to pursue my very own dream. rest in peace. My only unfulfilled dream for now is becoming a stay at home mother (read:not forever). lame kan. haha.

Happy New Year, i'm so looking forward for more adventures and uncertainties.

hugs

zaraaaaa

assalamualaikum,

we received a good news today at 5.36 pm.

my fifth sis gave birth to her first daugther. baby zaraaa.  weighed 3.5 kg and 46 cm in length. she's far more than perfect! alhamdulillah.

masih ada rindu

assalamualaikum.

tajuk yang agak catchy bukan?

alhamdulillah, last friday was my last day as a student in Ipg Kampus Pulau Pinang. That's what i've been waiting ever since i entered my degree years. tight rules. school like schedules. the list goes on and on. i can give a thousand reasons why i really hated my own school. There's one thing i didn't realize before making the decision to become a teacher. once you enter this profession, you can never run away from school, schedules, rules and etc. long sigh.

today marks the fourth day as an unemployed lady. an employee to none. i feel empty. phewww. all things that i hated has diffused into my blood and made i am who i am today. i can't live without them. prior to that, i need a job now to practice what's inside the books that i've read and i need tight schedules and rules to guide my life. hahahaha. i need money too. i need a new handbag. i don't care if it's not the famous amos designer handbags. i just need something new and pretty. criessssss.

i just can't figure out what should i do if the MoE decides to let's wait for a longer time. people keep on asking when i'll be posted and one more thing, the terrible question like when are you going to get married? don't ask me such question. i'm no one to decide my own jodoh. only Allah s.w.t knows when and how i'm gonna meet my future leader a.k.a boss at home.

sekarang ni xsudah lagi settle down so manyyyy things like kemas baju. almaklumla, belajar dekat je. so, aku angkut balik segalanya. kalau belajar jauh mcam kat overseas ke, you'll sort things to bring home. ni takkkk. semua penting. sudahnya, xde tempat nak letak. ke tong sampah atau masuk dalam api la jawapannya.

tak fikir lagi nak membuang masa dengan aktiviti apa. sobs. mak xbagi reja. kenala patuh cakap parents kan selagi xde suami. so, akulah bakal penganggur tegar.

till then,
assalamualaikum