coming home

Salam,

I dun think ican stand if kpm posts me to a far discreet area or wherever far away from my home sweet home.haha. I'm home after a week being far away from my family.haha. Missing them? Ofcourse. But the purpose of me deciding to be home is for a very strong reason and not only homesick kay. I'm home for a license. Car license. Next time, ehem license plak.haha.just kidding. There's no other places like home. The only place where i can find the serenity.if u choose to book a cozy room in a 5 stars hotel or a private bungalow near to the beach or deep in a black forest just for a release-tension-vacation. I choose to stay at home and enjoy my holidays to the fullest. Home is the only place where i can find my special motivators. Whenever i feel down, there is always someone who is ready to hear me and the most important thing is its for free..ehe. U dun have to pay or sibuk2 make an early appointment.plus, what makes me eager to be home is my niece and nephews..haha..being surrounded by them. Owh, what a beautiful moment. Please dun make any assumptions ha.bukan xsbar bak ada babies but this is what we call gejala mak cik. being a mother at this early age..haha..ingat main pondok2. At this age, gelaran acik is better than mummy.i love you all kids tho you all are naughty and sometimes can be categorized as hyper active..xla..ok, nak sambung main tiger vs human.

21/6/2011

 salam,

hari kedua, cepatnya masa berlalu.rasa macam baru semalam habis SPM, bergumbira, melompat sini sana, masih belum dewasa dan xkisah orang nak kata apa. hari ini, bila terpandang wajah kat cermin compact powder, barula terasa yang diri dah makin tua. walaupun kedut-kedut masih belum berleluasa tapi the sign of maturity sudah ada. bintik-bintik hitam, rekahan dll.itu tandanya sudah dewasa dan diri semakin dimamah usia. 

hari ini masa berlalu sangat pantas, rasa macam baru ja pagi tapi dah petang. tambah-tambah pulak lepas zohor tidur, bangun je dah azan asar.lagi rasa masa cepat berlalu tapi adakah masa yang berlalu digunakan sebaiknya. takut memikirkan esok dan masa depan. masih bernyawakah diriku pada esok hari. cukupkah amalku. selepas malam ini, akan adakah siang. ataupun esok duniaku gelap gelita. macam-macam persoalan timbul. 

Hati xtenang bila memikirkan keputusan peperiksaan yang masih belum keluar. khabar angin dah ada namun kesahihannya belum dapat dibuktikan..Semga tiada yang kecewa. Semoga semuanya gembira. Semoga ianya adalah terbaik seiring dengan usaha yang diletakkan. Diri ini bertawakkal atas apa jua keputusannya. doakan..doakan..doakan

Pulau Pinang hari ini panas dan kering sampaikan kipas angin yang sehabis laju pun xmampu nak menghalau haba. menunggu hujan yang xtiba. 

 Kerja masih xbertimbun, masa banyak untuk mengupdate.ideanya kurang. hasilnya inilah..

sem 2- on my first day

salam,

my first day was hectic and boring. penang was too hot for a taiping girl  who couldn't stand the hot weather. everything had started just like usual. classes ended at 1.30 and there's gap between certain subjects. thank god. i was so sleepy during the second class. not because i hate math but it was my breakfast time. so, need a few changes and i need time to adapt to changes after about 3 weeks of holidays. so, not a good start kan. first day, syahira was so sleepy. second day, perhaps she will fully awake and pay attention to whatever in front. everyone looked very tired and demotivated. why? holidaying mood was still on. need to switch it off before going to class tomorrow morning.i believe sem 2 is going to be tough if someone prefers to relax and enjoy.

currently, waiting for the rain to wash the heat out.

my old routine had started. visiting a big beautiful cozy mall named tesco. just bought a new pair of sport shoes. it was not in my list of things to buy but my heart shouted out loud "just bought it..once in a while..the old worn out sport shoes might cause any accident due to its slippery soles" . so, better change it before something bad happened and tomorrow i'm gonna attend my first sports class for this sem =). strong reasons for a buying decision. just donate quite a big amount of money to tesco. hurm, overspent.. next time, i've to ready with a short list of things to buy and budget as well.

My schedule may be tight.My day may be hectic.  But I would never let the day end without saying good night. =)

sem 2

salam..

sem 1 is now officially over.

Its time for a new list of wishes and hopes and missions for the next six months.

• handbag
• camera
• electronic dic
• new tops and bottoms
• new tudung
• qatam al-quran+tafsir sebelum bulan puasa
• tambahkan puasa sunat
• rajin rajinkan diri ke majlis ilmu
• ganti puasa
• cara berpakaian memerlukan sedikit perubahan
• pemakanan
• pengurusan kewangan needs a new method to manage money in and out effectively.
• timetable
• diary
• jangan tangguh buat coursework/homework/readings
• finish reading at least four books excluding text books.
• study smart
• short notes
• isl awal2
• plan a trip to somewhere near to my college.
• early preparation for every subject
• waking up early than usual (perhaps before azan)
• marratib amal
• simpan duit for holidying trip which will be set based on the money 
• put on a few kilos for a balance bmi
• be more active and dun afraid to speak out.
• trash away the lack of condence.build in yourself the confidence that you need.
• watch out your words and talk less

something i dun want it to happen is just happened just now. but i've to accept it and work on it no matter how uneasy it is. so, welcome sem 2. good luck syahira.

on growing old

salam.

kids- crying, running, walking, talking, crawling, playing, learning, knowing, repeating, acting, eating, mumbling, giggling, teasing, fighting, imitating.......growing

 i was looking at him enjoying his activities while talking to his mum.

me: cepatla besaq shakir oii..naughty sangat
my sister: kalau shakir besaq, hang makin tua.
me: kan. sket2 g kita sembang pasal depa nak belajaq kat mana pulak..la ni dok sembang pasal nakal.

you will never realize them growing. so do i. it just happens. it's just like last night i hear them crying for milk.refusing to sleep at night and make all of us especially their parents staying up all the night just for them. throwing tantrum at times regardless of times and where are they. that's them. for now, tantrum is still on but not even at once i see my sisters are getting fade up or hate them for humiliating their mothers in front of the crowd sometimes. nothing can change a mother's love and that's why my top list of admired person goes to my mother( She raises up 7 lives+my father and a few our new generations.She is our mother, mediator, doctor, teacher, lecturer, engineer,  architecture, psychologist, teacher n etc). not to forget aunties' love..:)..I've learnt so many things on bringing up human by watching at how a happy go lucky teenager turns to be an adults then a mother..it is not easy. kids, they keep growing day by day and it happens very fast. watching them grow is just like enjoying a blockbuster movie. everyone is talking about it and excited to watch it.

kids are growing matured. the elders? are growing older..oh no!!!but that's life. It keeps moving forward and there's no rewind button or any backward chance for you. let past be a memory and experience for the coming future.

meet baby aliyah sajidah

our new bundle of joy.my first niece after a bundle of heroes.

the one who will always in my thoughts

salam,

just coming back from penang.
from a land  of tears. signs of sorrow are everywhere. i cuddle her mom  and tears begin to wet my cheeks. i look into her mom's eyes. physically, i can see her patient but who knows her feeling. only Allah knows. I can't say anything except mak cik, be patient. tears roll down my cheeks. she pats my back and the only thing that she says is Allah loves her more than we do. No grief in her eyes just a peaceful gaze. No tears in her eyes just a new hope . She keeps talking about her. I know, she misses her very much and that's why she keeps talking about her. me too. I'm not a close friend of her. sincerely, i don't know her well but i can feel that she was a great person.

my heart sank when i found out the sad news. i still remember that day which was my last day seeing her smiling face and her last goodbye for me. She was with her close friend, Laili and i was standing at the corridor doing my work. They were walking together and i greet them by saying goodbye and have a safe journey and take care. she did smile at me and replied me good bye. she said twice and she talked to herself. why i did twice and she smiled at me before walking down the stairs. that was our last meeting and i couldn't forget that scene until now and forever. i dunno why but it keeps coming into my mind. i can feel the lost. the lost of a very good person. It makes me remember my final virtue in life. Journey of life. it always has its start and ofcos its ending.just like a railway train. Allah knows better.

Our first meeting was during the independence day celebration ...

Allah loves her more than we human does and He will take care of her. May Allah gives you paradise.. Ameen..I shall miss you and hope  to see you again.Insha-Allah.