what is cheken?

assalamualaikum,

it has been one week since i get back my title. they call me teacher, ustazah, cikgu and so on so forth. sometimes, they call me kakak which always make me smile. it's okay to call me kakak. it makes me feel young. always and forever young till the end. how i wish i could stay young forever.  

i'm still in the process of learning.  i need to wash my brain before i could brush the children's brains. thing that I always remind myself is not to underestimate my pupils. 

cheken pun cheken la. at least they know ayam is chicken. # jyaaaaa#

till then

waking up in Balik Pulau

assalamualaikum,

live from Balik Pulau.

friends: eyh!remember the day we came here for house hunting
a: yeah, one month has passed.
b: i'm not sure i'm ready or not.
c: i'm not. it happens so fast.

fast. that's the only word to describe time. we are here and we will be here till mid september. first impression is always negative. so, let's not believe my first impression. no matter where i am. i am just hoping for a meaningful and blessed Ramadhan.

Ramadhan. Season of Ibadah. It prepares us for another 11 months.

p/s: my non muslim housemate bersahur n berpuasa just like us. i reallly need your help, friends. let's make a dua'. semoga hidayah miliknya suatu hari nanti.

till then,assalamualaikum

rambling of an observer

assalamualaikum,

today should be the third day in Ramadhan but me? sad to think. my biological cycle says not yet so who am i not to admit though i'm totally sad. we're born to be special.

last night, i went to masjid negeri Pulau Pinang since we were planning to have usrah there. that's not my first time coz i'd been there on the first day for tarawih. i love the feeling to be there coz it made me feel even more excited to welcome the Holy month of Ramadhan. i was excited and up until now, i am still excited. ntah. this feeling is indescribable. i loved to be there so, before my hectic days started, i made sure to be there everyday for tarawih though i just could sit at the back watching people performing their tarawih.

yesterday, i could see a different view. mommies brought their small children to mosque and they were really struggling. that's the spirit. I couldn't see from the community in my hometown. no one would dare to bring their small children.

semalam, ada seorang kakak ni bawa anak dia. umur dalam setahun lebih. she asked me to look after her daughter. i nodded. half way. dia nangis. sebab ada handsome boy took away her pencil and notebook. purr. mak dia stop solat. yang membuatkan rasa teruja sangat bila dia pujuk anak dia. dia tak marah pun. slow talk. anak dia tunjuk pintu, nak keluar. kakak ni pun slow talk. kata, no! we can't go out. ibu wants to pray. please, behave adik. kejap je. ibu wants to pray. what do you expect. budak tu tak nangis dah. tapi mak dia bukak upin ipin lah. lepas tu solat kat tepi anak dia. xnangis dh baby tu. lepas tu behave je.

looking at one side, memang mengganggu jemaah lain

looking at another side (positive). i admire the mother. her struggle and her will.

jemaah kaum bapa di hadapan. penuh ketenangan.

memang susah untuk bertarawih berjemaah esp bagi kaum hawa esp bila ada gerabak (anak). tapi tak mustahil.

insaf. teringat mak. mak ada 7 orang anak. berapa tahun tak tarawih kat masjid. yela,kalau kat kampung, bawak anak-anak kecil kena marah. sebab  bising. berapa lama solat mak terganggu dengan anak-anak kecil. besarnya pahala seorang ibu.  


=)

till then.

Ramadhan

assalamualaikum,

stopping by to wish happy fasting and have a bless Ramadhan. Let us welcome this holy month warmly and make it as the right time to get a lot of mercy and blessings from Allah s.w.t. ayuh! gear 5. full speed Mercedes.

till then, assalamualaikum.

countdown to Ramadhan

assalamualaikum,

sekarang, lagho sangat. just now, i did some calculating to count the days left before ramadhan. 11 days left to preheat/re-heat the engine. 

what to do????

each of us has our own uniqueness. instead of following others' plan, why don't we try to work on our own plan to weight with our abilities/capabilities/expectations. baru tak stress. mungkin sebab tu kita selalu dengar orang kata, Ramadhan ni memang lah singkat but it takes 11 months to prepare for it. sebulan yang singkat tapi penuh barakah. 

yang belum mula training, let's start right now. nak jogging pun kena warm -up. apatah lagi nak memasuki bulan Ramadhan.

i personally think, this coming Ramadhan will be the toughest as compared to the previous years. blame on the practicum. eh, main 'blame' pulak. 

i already discussed the problem with my friend. guess what she said. it should not be a burden yet a process of learning and a booster to be a better caliph. well, years to come, i'll still have to face the same moment and difficulty back to back. 

what can we do right now in order to prepare us, physically and mentally, for Ramadhan?

urm, maybe...

1) slowly, add up at least one or two pages per day to recite as well as tadabbur as to prepare us for tadarus. 

2) qiamullail. starting from today on wards. make sure you wake up at least ten minute to fifteen minutes earlier before subuh praying calls. i'm talking to myself right now coz i always almost lose when it comes to qiamullail.  

3) puasa sunat. sebenarnya dah terlambat sebab sesetengah berpendapat tak digalakkan puasa sunat dah sekarang melainkan org yang sudah terbiasa puasa sunat. pendapat orang. tak tahu kesahihan. relax.don't panic. you can prepare yourself mentally. talk to yourself that you're going to fast very soon. be patient. macam lawak, but it works as intrinsic motivation. 

lagi? list down by yourself. paste somewhere/anywhere you can see. 

last but not least, don't forget to recite this prayer. 

Allahumma bariklana fi Syaaban. Wa balighna Ramadhan.

till then,

countdown starts. #jyaaaaa#

pesanan dari yang berpengalaman

assalamualaikum,

life is indeed a learning process. berkat jalan-jalan menghirup udara di bilik orang.

dapat belajar sesuatu.

katanya,

early marriage is not always easy. so, if you really want to, make sure you're ready to sacrifice. avoid demanding perfection. don't demand on things that you know, you can't get. kurangkan meminta, jangan lokek memberi.

faham?

saya faham! my respect goes to her.

being a woman, i know. it's not easy to ignore our desires. talking about desires. you name it. i want a classy branded handbag. i want a blouse. i want a branded watch. i want a rich husband. i want my husband to support me financially because i'm his wife and that's part of husband's responsibility in marriage life. sah bankrupt lelaki itu! =) i want everything in my wishlists. bulu kaki pun kena jual. =P

starting from today on wards. girls. stop day dreaming. ask every women. almost everyone would want to get married. kalau boleh, as soon as possible. but, how prepared are we? how much are we ready to sacrifice? ready to stop day dreaming?

semalam, keputusan posting seniors dah keluar. yang kahwin dapat posting dekat suami. yang 'single', berbakti di seberang lautan. pergh.  konklusinya, bertambahlah surat permohonan untuk berkahwin di HEP lepas ni. =)

macam kena hantar surat permohonan dekat rumah jugak ni. =P

till then,

report card

assalamualaikum,

hati dah tenang, baru boleh menterjemahkan apa di hati dan di minda. hehe

the house hunt had ended. we finally decided to split up. thinking of the cost. perghh. it cost a bomb. no shopping or else no savings.

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every city in the world has a village in its heart, you will never understand the city, unless you understand the village..

we fell in love at first sight. I never realized the existence of Balik Pulau.

such a lovely place to stay!