stress!!!

Assalamualaikum..

its painful for me to hear others are talking about my ability..it has been a long time since my last tear of shame, self hate, heartbreak,sceptism and fear. its rather difficult for me to accept the reality that im still dreadfully weak in this field.but than, today, someone makes me realize who am i. sometimes, i really need someone who is very sincere in his/her words so it will make me realize my level and ability. but today, its too much for me to cope with..its too much.i try my level best to digest everything without any complaining or rebellion. but, i cant..my heart rebels.she said, do i look like a dummy dull ridiculous silly funny person. owh..i'm sad and i'm scared..i frequently get sad but today i feel very down..yes.. i can smile even i'm really sad.but..i'm not truly me today.i'm other person.i'm a person who tries to think positive coz i know n realize the power of positive thinking. Maintaining positive thinking and attitude will drive you to success and happiness. but, deep inside my heart, im crying ok..emotional sket..blame it on the hormones (over secretion of emotional hormone) n people who make me sad. but, crying can't solve any problem right. therefore, the best solutions are by working harder, using the language, read more, learn more, paying attention, asking lecturers(nk tanye pe??) , writing more......

by the way, tomorrow is holiday...hihi..despite the tons of due assignment, i still have to enjoy my holiday kn coz my charming body insists some rest. she's really tired. so, why dont i sacrifice my little time for her outside. she really needs some fresh air and peaceful sightseeing..

"Success often comes to those who have the aptitude to see way down the road."

(Laing Burns, Jr.)