it's been awhile since my last entry. i can't even access to internet and that is the only reason of me no longer post any entries. dunno what's actually happened to the wifi system. luckily, i'm not the only one who's facing this problem. both me and my roommate are facing the same problem. but, i'm quite lucky than her as i still can access to internet although i need to wait for about 2-4 hours before the line is ok..pity afzan, her lappy refuses to detect at all.i really can't stand without internet. dunno y..fb..maybe but more to information such as latest news. i prefer to read online newspaper. so, when my lappy mengade refuses to connect with wifi. i'm totally lost.'katak dibawah tempurung'. i dunno what is happening outside..dunno the latest hot issues such as 'bajet 2010' yang bias..ngeh2..apakah erti RM 500. sincerely, i love to be involved in political arena. but i dun have any talents to be a good leader.so, let it be.
so, exam is just around the corner. if you can swim inside my brain..u will find it haywire. i'm sure, by now, by brain is totally going haywire...i hate words..i hate notes.i hate big fat books. owh, language subjects are not as tough as math etc but u'll find it difficult when u get the tricky questions. Plus, when u are given any questions that prohibit you from writing as longer as you want..owh, it is not easy k especially when u've lotsa things to write but you must stick to the words limit..owh, xsuke..
The perks of being a tesl student...
people say our subjects are easy like kacang golek..but, it's absolutely not.
exam is just around the corner but we are still having something else to do instead of preparing ourselves for exam. i hate reading something that can be considered as 'dry'..facts will make you crazy.people are expecting your excellent results but corot.. i've the experienced of being a failure.enuf..i dun wanna face it again..it hurts me and ofcos my parents. what am i doing here. 1 year is quite along time for me to improve and to prove.
People are expecting u as a master. u can speak fluently in English. u know everything. you can memories thousand words in the dictionary.u've a large vocabulary..but, that's not me. i'm still at the first stage where i'm still crawling .Bear in mind, learning language is not as easy as kocang golek..u dun need to memories tonnes of formula but u need to create one. n it'll be yours.
i'm scared ok..
it's not easy for me to describe my feelings. i experience a major adrenaline rush since last week.hurm, dunno why..maybe, i'm really scared of the coming exam..thinking about my past make me feel like 'xnk exam'
رَبِّيْ اشْرَحْ لِيْ صَدْرِيْ وَيَسِّرْ لِيْ أَمْرِيْ
Tuhanku (Allah) lapangkanlah dadaku dan permudahkanlah urusanku
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