missi0n vs vissi0n vs goals

syahira is getting better and she's currently thinking ab0ut her life..again n again..sampy pening..but she's not working anything yet..she's becoming lazier.she cannot think wisely..she becomes talkative + crazy + sensitive..but today, after doing her assignments and writing her essay.p0p.idea flash through her mind..She's going to read something.she loves stalking others blog..she starts her findings..an a few minutes later..she gets what she wants..a new friend..who has the same interest as her..she loves that blog..it is all ab0ut the blogger's life.she starts blogging in 2004 until now..from single mingle until n0w....she loves traveling.she graduates from abr0ad university..n ofcos shes from a rich family..i start dreaming of having the same experience and the same life as her ...i wanna be like her..live in a happy life..with lots of money.don't have to think about shortage of money..just enjoy our live..but..how do i know she's having an enjoyable life..look..i love judging other people through their appearance and pics..i realized that i must stop it..every time i read other people blogs, i'll compare their life with my life..ofcos..i wanna be like most of em'..rich..got a big car.a big house.. have a lot of friends..have a good job..rich husband..perfect...but i do think that we're not the same..thats their life..not mine..i've my own life.i dont have to follow others..i dont really need a rich husband..but..if i am bless to have one..alhamdulillah la..huhu..i'll be a graduate teacher soon..i'll have my own money..although, teacher's income is not as much as other professional job's income..but its ok la..i'll plan my life so that i can have my dream's life..i'll..

oo00pss..Last few days, i've joined a  daurah which is held at mainland, Bertam Baru.. I've gained a lot of new experiences.Thats ma first time joining that kind of program and it is actually great..I just need to pay bout 2$..free transportation..bfast is prepared by the committee.we have a talk on water..solah..n etc.it does take not a long time..4 hours..it starts at 10am and finish at 1.30pm..

~us~

join us..i swear u'll find it worth..it does not take a longer time..just take few hours..u'll gain a lot of priceless  knowledge from the talk.

beautiful Islam..the complete way of life..:)

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Jalur ufuk pula mengemas terang
Kapal dan layar terkapar

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Barukan terdetik, pulang ke pengkalan
Gusar malam menghampiri
Ku tewas di lautan

Tuhan layarkanku ke arah cintaMu
Tuntuniku menggapai redhaMu
Rimbunan kasihMu ku berteduh
KepadaMu ya Tuhan
Berikan secebis keinsafan
Bekalan sepanjang perjalanan
Mencari ketenangan

c/o
Biar Kau menjadi saksi
Tulus tangisku kala dini hari
Kesempatan yang hanya sebentar
Moga keikhlasanku terlakar
Berikanlah ku hidayah
Agar dikuatkan iman yang lemah
Moga diberkati hidup ini
Menuju bahagia yang kekal abadi

PadaMu Tuhan
Kan kuserahkan cinta kepadaMu

Tuhan layarkanku ke arah cintaMu
Tuntuniku menggapai redhaMu
Rimbunan kasihMu ku berteduh
KepadaMu ya Tuhan
Berikan secebis keinsafan
Bekalan sepanjang perjalanan
Mencari ketenangan

c/o
Biar Kau menjadi saksi
Tulus tangisku kala dini hari
Kesempatan yang hanya sebentar
Moga keikhlasanku terlakar
Berikanlah ku hidayah
Agar dikuatkan iman yang lemah
Moga diberkati hidup ini
Menuju bahagia yang kekal abadi

Harapanku moga dikurniakan
Manisnya iman berpanjangan
Moga lautan hilang gelora

 

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i FAIL!!!

im crying..keep crying..cannot stop even a minute when i'm thinking bout this..yeah..i've experienced the failure when i was in secondary school..but it is not as hurt as what i feel now.. 46/100..+ madam had informed us earlier..please minus 10..the question is quite easy compared to the real one..that's means..i only get 36/100..Ya ALLAH..who am i..what am i doing here.. i cant stay here..i know i cannot be a good English teacher..but why i choose this way..i'm not sure..this is the  "kifarah" for me.. i cannot even write a good essay..but why~~why?? i choose this hurtful way..i cant do this anymore..its hurtful...like i said in the previous post.. i dunno what i will do if i fail my exam.now.it happens to me..i dunno what i should do..once i get the paper...tears roll down my cheeks..this is not my first time crying because of my failure..when i was in form 5..my essay..trouble.the highest mark that i could ever get is C.. the lowest is E.at that time, i realized that i hate English with all of my heart..SPM result>>A2/C5...but once again i dunno why i choose to be an English teacher.my sister advices me to stay at KMPP n struggle so that i can achieve my ambition which is to be a doctor..but i refused.why??c0z i hate failure..im scared of that words..im sick..crying because of my failure.medic is tough course compared to TESL.but when this happens to me.i've changed..medic=TESL..it happens to me again..im dumbfounded, frightened,scared...i phoned all my sisters, my parents, my friends..i wanna share my mistakes with them..please help me..im hurt..i dunno what i should do..Should i dump this course??i cant..Ive started it..i dunno where should i go if i leave this college..but it appears in my mind..i feel like i wanna run away..far from this college..far from my friend..studying in college is really different compared to studying in university.. At university, no one will compare your result or asking you bout your result..but here..no..no..No..people wanna know..who gets the lowest..people will talk about you eg >>what is happening to me now<<.maybe!!but im sure...my life will totally change...before this, i wake up every morning with a big smile on my face.. But now, no more..it affects my life..my confidence.everything else..n i realized my mistake in my life..this will be happened in ur life if u choose the wrong way..u farce urself to learn it although ur mind..ur body refuse to accept it..but im not going to give up..I'll force again my body..my mind to digest English language...i wanna be a good teacher..i must..this is my life.. i've chosen it ..no one forces me..g0!! g0!!! syirah...


But it is hard to erase this experience from my mind..im crying uncontrollably while i'm typing this heart letter.."Letter from my heart"..
                                                                                                                                

What medicine will help me to cure my broken heart??

Can it be cured??Should I do anything to cure my depression...

 i'll cure it myself.I need help but no one can help me except ALLAH..please!!!ma dear friends....pray for me..im going to repeat ldv's paper if they give me my second chance..i really hope they'll give it to me..

i'm on diet !!!

 

diet!!diet!!diet!!fuhh..i'm scared when im trying to figure out my body shape after 5 to 10 years..all my friends said..u kurus la..but i dont think so..i feel n when i touch my waist..oo0pps..its not really in shape..im getting fat from day to day..from 23 to 24 to ???..no..n0.no.. during my pj class with madam amy..she told us that although you looked thin but sometimes people like me have high risk to get heart failure/heart attack compared to the bigger one..thats why we need to take care of our body..pampered them.do exercise regularly although we're thin and slim..thin n slim don't mean that ur body is fit..ouch..it leaves me with a great impact..i can feel that my body is getting bigger  from day to day..i'll feel very tired when i standing too long or jogging with my friends..it takes quite long time to recover it..these show that i need to work on with something..maybe i need to control my meals..av0id chicken+lamb= high cholesterol..take lots of vege..i don wanna lose my shape..although people will think im a bit crazy because for them i'm more than thin..(besar lidi)..but i don't think so.. I'm doing this for my own sake..I'll feel more comfortable with my own way..i don't mean to be as slim as model..but i wanna be a healthy woman..that's all..d0nt blame me...i've talked with some of my friends bout this hot topic n suddenly she said..syira..look at our "tummy"...hahaha..i cant say it *****...
so, how??how to tone ur tummy and slim ur waist..i've read an article which talk bout this..n d result..

How to slim down ur tummy???

1. 
   
   
   
   Step 1
    Keeping a list of what and when you eat during the day will help you keep track of everything you are putting into your body. Find out your healthy range of calories and stick to it! Don't let yourself get caught up in snacking before bed, and eating after you are full.
   
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   Step 2
   Drink! Hydration is very important for your body to function at its best. The more water you intake the better for you. Did you know that you retain water, adding to the bloating mid-section, if you don't drink enough fluids?
   
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   Step 3
   Jump around! Cardio is very important to weight loss, and toning all around. Get your heart pumping in an outdoor activity this summer.
   
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   Step 4
   Stride! Hit the stride machine at the gym. Especially useful for those who have bad knees, and cant run around too much. Many machines have a variety of programs from.
   >>But for us as a student, we dont have enough money for this..so..why not u just jogging around any field..start with 400 yards..but i dont think i'll do this..i prefer to just round and jogging around my hostel.why??coz d weather is hot..burn!!
   
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   Step 5
   Dance! Whip out that ipod and make a playlist with energizing songs that get you pumped up. Its much easier to stay on the ball when you have the music to steady you.
   
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   Step 6
   Eat! Try a slice of watermelon after a workout. Your body is still going and burning fat after you jump off the treadmill. You may start craving salty, calorie-filled foods following a good workout, but don't give in!
   
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   Step 7
   R&R! A little rest and relaxation will leave you refreshed and ready for whats ahead. After a week of following your workout and diet plan reward yourself with a visit to the spa. You deserve it.
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
   
                 keep healthy..^_^

l0st world of tambun vs z0o da bo00m...

finally..i've got d worthless opportunity to enjoy swimming..playing there.3 hours is not that en0ugh..but i manage to visit all places there..pet house n etc..it is my 1st time visiting there n d result is..yes..it's fun n enjoying..when we compared to bukit merah..tambun is quite fun but just b'c0z of the lane "b'simpang siur"..buttt..it's quite cosy..30$ per person.l0cker>>10$ per locker.feed the tiger..if i'm not mistaken..bout 15$ .so we must think wisely b4 going there.think bout evrything..spare xtra m0ney..luckily, we've our own penaja..s0 we just enjoy without thinking anything.

                                    

nie ha..pnaja tetap..Mdm S + Mr A...

Zoo taiping again...again n again..but its ok la..c0mpared to just stay at home..n doing nothing.i prefer to join them..enjoy the beauty of nature..n once again we've our own pnaja..haha..that's really great..we don't have to use our own money.just follow n hav fun..the only purpose of going there is to show n get adam close to the nature..he loves animals esp cat..

petua..petua..

Petua untuk dapat jodoh (sebagai tambahan kepada usaha2 lain).. amalkan ayat 131 dan 132 Surah Toha selepas solat setiap solat fardu, bermula dari :

" Walaa tamuddanna'ainaika illa ma mata'na bihi azwajanminhum zahratul hayattu linaftinahum fiih, warizqo robbikaa hairu wa abqa, wa' mur ahlakaa bisSolaati,wastabir 'alaiha, laa nas aluka rizqo, nahnu narzukuqa, wal'aqibati lit taqwa......."

bererti :

"Jangan lah pandangan mata kamu terpesona melihat perhiasan kehidupan (yang Kami beri kepada orang2 kafir) yang menjadi ujian padanya. Dan rezeki kurniaan daripada tuhanmu (Allah) itulah lebih baik dan kekal(balasan Syurga). Dan suruhlah /arahkan ahlimu (keluarga dan anak2 serta org terdekat) mengerjakan solat, dan bersabarlah kamu atas perkara itu. Tidak lah Kami minta rezeki dari mu, tetapi Kamilah (Allah) yang mengurniakan rezeqi kepadamu dan 'akibat kesudahan baik itu adalah bagi mereka yang bertaqwa"

pujaan hatiku...that inspire me..

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