deja vu

assalamualaikum,

there goes the chronicles of my clicking fingers. while waiting for the wifi connection to speed up, hopefully, let me tell you a story.

i have been keeping something in my mind these days. it's deja vu.

this year is an eventful year for me. read: negative.

i got into an accident where a nowhere from motorbike suddenly hit my car and flew like a stuntman did in the action movie. if you ever watch. it was real. it happened in front of my eyes and alhamdulillah, Allah preserves me. trauma for sure. i was so shocked when it happened. the motorcyclist stand up and asked (begged) me to send him to the nearest hospital. without any qualms, i brought him to the nearest hospital. that was my first experience. i felt like crazy thinking of how it happened and how's my parents' reaction. yeah. they paid the monthly installment for  the car and the fact that i didn't have monthly income cz i'm a student hit me like crazy. it was already 4pm when i arrived at the hospital. i helped the motorcyclist to settle down and suddenly i remembered that i owe zuhr prayer. i quickly drove out of the hospital area and headed to the nearest mosque, Indian Mosque. messed. not the mosque but my brain. i went back to the hospital cz i still kept the motorcyclist mycard with me in case he wanted to ran away from me. (my sis told me to do). i obeyed to whatever my sister said cz i was so shocked that i felt like a human without mass. flying in the air like a ghost. kah kah kah.The motorcyclist demand gila. He asked me to saty back and later, sent him to his house. sape langgar sape? kata my sisters. i wore human being mask that day not syaiton mask. that's why i decided to wait for him and sent him to the hospital and later, to his house. like a boss! he told me to send my car to the nearest workshop and he begged from me to pay half only! what??? like i said, i wore human mask that day. i didn't say a thing until i got home and my bil said, let man talked to man. gituuu. and finally, the motorcyclist agreed to pay the whole cost. habis....

i think i'd learnt a lesson and enough.....

the second time happened when i was on my way to college from my rent house in Seberang Jaya. I was trapped in a massive traffic jam that morning. otw, a woman riding a yellow car suddenly hit a motorcyle and it happened that the motorcycle landed on my car (the driver's door). fulamak. and he left a black scratch. arghh. it was like. what the hell. the same door. i just repainted the door and now, you crazy human beings left such scar without any sorry, at least. memang nak mampus. being an experienced lady, i tracked the yellow car's owner who ran after the motorcylce until her working place. she's a teacher! amekau. i met her face to face and she asked me to send my car to the nearest workshop and she'll pay, said her. I left my phone number and she asked me my occupation and i told her. what a big mistake. i was a teacher trainee in a school in Seberang Jaya when the incident happened. You know what. She told her husband and the husband called my boss and he broke the news the whole mansion. tak patut. he called me on the same day twice. once when i was in the hall attending a course and once, during lunch. he asked me why i tracked her wife until her working place. i old him the real truth because her wife left me and the pak cik without sorry. maybe, she said to the pak cik but not me. second, she caused the incident happened and she left a balck scratch on my door. he asked me, who'll pay the damage that her wife make on his car? i told him don't  ask me but ask your wife cz she's the one who did that. he still tak puas hati until i told him, i don't want money but i just want to give a piece of advice to both of them. kah kah kah. they deserved my bad words. i exploded like a glazier. the last sentence was please, act like a teacher. say sorry. if not, you'll produce humans just like you.  bersambung di sekolah.

rupanya, he told my gb about that incident and of course la menang kat dia. the gb asked me to see her the day i back to work. i told the whole story like a volcano! only stop to breath in and out. kah kah kah. i said, the story shouldn't be spread like this and let me talk to him cz i don't like to bring outside thingy into work. she calmed me down and told me about the woman yang dia kata bekeng. entah. lantakla nak bekeng ke bengkang but don't bring the world outside into my career world. memang cari nahas! once again i wore a human mask. i uttered  stupid words when i told my friends about what happened between me and the gb just to calm me down. i'm a woman. once again, i'm a woman. i did what woman always do when they meet with problems. i continued blabbering till i felt relieve and content. thanks to my dear friends.

tragedy of 2014 did not end there. there's a few more series of kissings. argh.

kenapa deja vu?

cz i could feel it when it's about to happen. for example, if mak said, don't go but i still going, it happened. entahla. kebetulan kot.

but, now, i always remind myself not to go across my mak's advices cz i scare it will happen again. cries. if mak said don't go, i prefer not to. better stay a home or in the college rather than exposing myself to danger.

i never told mak cz for sure, she won't believe deja vu.

my advice is don't forget to recite dua and tawakkal before you start doing anything. In my case, before i start my journey. nightmare!!!!

till then, thanks for reading if you're reading.

hello, hello, hye!

assalamualaikum,

wow, it has been ages since my last post. it's mojo not me. so, what's up? holiday is here again. i'm counting days to start my final semester. i'm in the process to fill up all the forms that will determine my future. how i wish  my father knows someone with high post to help me with my posting thingy. kih kih. but, one thing that i believe will never let me down. tawakkal. i have Allah. we have Allah. i know he will place me where i deserve and definitely not where i want.

oh, it takes forever for me to fill up the forms; e-vetting and posting form. lucky i have someone who's currently residing in a developed country with high speed internet. i know i'm gonna use that person. puas sabar. nampaknya. nanti dah keje nak sign up with unifi. they said, the speed is quite ok. i dunno.

hurm...what else? i'm not yet married. still single and can go anywhere i want without any curfews. hihi. i wonder when is my time cz one after another friend of mine invite me to their wedding. deep inside, i cried. haha.

eh, i need our help. pray for me. i'm entering another tough semester with tonnes of workloads waiting for me. no matter i hope i'll take them easy or they will be easy on me. eh. i know it won't happen. struggle, that's what i have to go through for sure.

one more thing. pray for my father. i just wanna see the healthy him. i won't be asking much. i know, there's no one could turn a 72 old man to a 27 young man. kih kih. my hopes are to see him happy and energetic to perform ibadah.

ok, till then. sehingga bertemu lagi. adakah waktu itu aku dah selamat jadi cikgu garang? hahahah. semoga tidak. semoga masih bersisa kerajin untuk berblog dan merakan detik indah dan istimewa dalam hidup. acehhh.

assalamualaikum

practicum 3

Assalamualaikum,

This is a responsibility. This is my future life. I'm lying to you if I say I have fully immersed in the situations and life as an educator. I'm trying my test to build up the strong passion and love towards all these. dealing with small children. dealing with the future leaders. dealing with the different interests and intelligences. dealing with the different backgrounds. dealing with the different thoughts and capability. In the end, I have to ensure the equality and treat them as one. 

dare not to ask me how cz i'm still learning too. 

trying my best not to be biased. trying my best to give more than i could give and to accept things that i never expected. trying my best to love them as if they are my babies. trying my best to treat them equally. 

i'm a newbie and i'm still learning. 

layan gambar sekolah baru. SK Seberang Jaya.

thick and thin. love and hate. weekend vs school days. 

barisan teaching aids. bukti kerajinan. bukan sahaja eyebag.

toodles!

wedding reception+holiday trip

assalamualaikum,

last few months, during the Chinese New Year break, we went to Terengganu for my sister's wedding reception. We spend three days since we'd never been there for the entire of our lives. my sisters booked three different homestays for us. The first one was located at Pantai Air Tawar. The house was super huge that we thought of buying the house if my father was a millionaire. The location was very  strategic whic facing the beach and at night, you could feel the wind slapping your cheeks. So, the house belong to us for a few hours since we arrived there the night before the reception. well, that's the thick and thin if you were travelling with babies, toddlers and kids. We had to stop at almost every r&r. clean up, fill up and etc. syamil pooped when we just continued our journey to Besut. not even 10 minutes on the road. pfttt. The pregnant mummy longed for keropok lekor, so we had to stop at the small stall along the journey to  buy some for the baby in the oven.

After a few hours, we finally arrived at a beautiful, peaceful land. i enjoyed the scenery. breathtaking. we went straight to my sister's parents in laws to fill up our empty tanks. And, we were brought to this beautiful house. we were welcomed by the sea breeze. heaven! i shall say.

taranggg! the first home where we stayed for a couple of hours.

MNI Homestay.  

on the second day.

the reception was on Friday, so, we must arrived at the groom's house right after jumaat prayer. As I said earlier, if you were travelling with babies, toddlers and kids, stop dreaming to always stick to a schedule. you had to always expect for the unexpected. hehe. 

we arrived at the 2pm and went back to the second home stay at about 4pm. We took some rest before continued our jalan-jalan cari makan to Pantai  Bukit Keluang. Since the kids were already tired and the adults needed to refill the empty spaces in their tanks, we decided to hunt for the best place to eat. We chose to eat at the restaurant near to Kuala Besut Jetty since my latest bil suggested that place. i forgot to snap any picture since i was busy eating and enjoying the cool wind. 

I requested my mak's permission to go to Pulau Perhentian just for sight seeing with my sister but, got rejected. pftt. that's a sign that i should make a come back.  

on the third day,

we planned to leave the house early in the morning. Sadly, the earliest that we could make was at 9 a.m. We went straight to my bil's house for breakfast. this time, they served us nasi berlauk. once in a while. enjoice! forget about the hidden fat for three days. 

the second homestay located near to IPG. best!!!

at about 11, we continued our journey to Kota Bharu. The hectic journey begun. I hated traffic jam. I won't go again to Kelantan during school holidays.  We arrived at Rantau Panjang late in the afternoon. We had very limited time to shop. we were tired sitting still in the car. i was so tired entertaining the active kids. i just wondered where do they get the energy to keep on playing and jumping and doing so many crazy things.

the third homestay located at Kampung Bunut Susu, if i' not mistaken. but, it took less than 5 minutes to Wakaf Che Yeh from the house. 

we arrived at the third home stay late at night. My sister planned to pay a visit to Wakaf Che Yeh, but, we had no more energy left. So, the plan was cancelled. 

On the fourth day,

we were more determined, energetic and excited to pay a visit to Pasar Siti Khadijah and Pasar Buluh Kubu. please don't ask how much we had spent coz i believed, you would say we were crazy. not me but my sisters. We went back to our homestay to pack our things  and checked out after spending a few hours in the building. We made a stop at the nearest restaurant to fill up our tanks before we continued our journey home. oh, the lunch was scrumptious and the second visit, i must do soon. 

that's the end of our journey to the east coast of Malaysia. we arrived home at around 2 a.m and the first thing that we did was to unpack things that we successfully rembat. haha.

till then, assalamualakum.

crash

assalamulaikum,

first and foremost, for the first time in my whole life watching a guy flew like a stunt man in a movie. it happened in front of my eyes. i got into an accident last two days. There's nothing serious but my baby and the motorcyclist were injured.

innalillahi wainna ilaihi raji'un.

Where should I start? It just happened. I was lucky coz it wasn't my mistake. If not, I'm died.  Everything had settled. The motorcyclist agreed to pay for the lost. If not I don't know where should I find such a large amount of money. Does it mean I need to cancel off my plan to buy a new woman gadget for myself. sigh. definitely, I won't.

it wasn't my mistake and....

i think i should reward myself for being extra patience and not lodging a report and i know, i'm a brave lady. haha. =P

pity my whitey mighty little princess. it won't happen again, insyaAllah. 

*silalah make fully use of doa sebelum naik kenderaan. That day i forgot to recite the prayer before I started my journey. who knows? That might be one of the cause. 

Above all, things always happened for reasons. A reminder for me to be extra careful  and we are actually at risk once the journey starts. Therefore, always say, 

Bismillahi tawakkaltu ‘alallah, Laa haulaa walaa quwwata illa billah

In the Name of Allah, I have placed my trust in Allah.There is no power and no might except by Allah.

till then, assalamualaikum.

anisah's big day

assalamualaikum,

this is just a simple reflection before i forget everything about this, my classmate+college mate wedding.

today is the day! alhamdulillah, both of them are now husband and wife. I'm glad to be one of the eyes to witness their big day. the ending for the 'cinta monyet' moments and a new beginning for the husband and wife life.

As a friend, my only hope is to see them happy until forever and after. May Allah shower their marriage with blessings and beautiful children and mawaddah and rahmah.

I never expected them to get married this soon. but, Allah has the best plan for both of the brides.

It's every woman's dream to get married and share the ups and downs in their life with someone they love and dear to their hearts.

love is in the air.

barakallahulakuma wajama3 bainakuma fikhair.

=)

nothingiseasy

Salam,

i wish my father is a millionaire, so i could just quit without any worries.

life is not that easy with a piles of work waiting for you day and night. i hate!

every teachers need a PA due now to the workloads and all the crazy stuffs.

life was easy but now, no more.


pftttt...