my beautiful old days

salam,

Memory

All alone in the moonlight

I can smile at the old days

I was beautiful then

I remember the time I knew what happiness was

Let the memory live again

-jason castro-

 nothing last forever but those words resonated with me deeply. 

the colourful side of life

salam,

alhamdulllah tsumma alhamdulillah.

red goes for problems

yellow goes for the happy moments

green goes for the relaxation 

blue goes for hopes

it was a hectic week. being occupied with lots of responsibilities, from workloads to society works. it felt like living an abnormal life. life as a busy woman. hahaha. there's something (secret) behind the busy and hectic life. procrastination was the secret. ohoho.  i had had experienced of two days straight without any sleep.that was terrible but i had no choice.isl files, assignments and the never ending presentation hit me at a time. =). daripada xpandai minum nescafe terus jadi pandai. i used two sachets for a cup of nescafe just to make me stay awake and fresh(not really) till the morning. i didn't expect to stay up until the next morning and it happened to be a recurrent event for the next day onward.  dun ask me how many hours did i take  just to cover the two sleepless nights. less than 24 hours . =). ala-ala doctor on call gitu. tu la.orang dah kata buat assignment awal-awal. kan dah dapat new unforgettable experience.

let's move to the exhibition tales.

believe it or not, i had three different exhibitions which were enough to make my eyes spinning and my brain stopped thinking for awhile. most of us had more than one exhibition ( i mean my cohort members). it was my first time having that kind of headache. which one should i go first?  which one should i give my hundred percent responsibilities and attentions? hurm. that was a crazy thing i ever encountered for my whole life as a student. every responsibilities came with our capabilities. i could not agree more. pahit dulu manis kemudian. that was what i felt. it was not easy at first yet as time goes by, everything went smoothly. praise be to Allah. 

lesson learnt.

1) Procrastination is a complex psychological behavior..haaa

random thoughts

salam,

more to come. hihi. let us talk about emotional management versus classroom management. it was last year when i found the importance of emotional management to teachers. it was last week when I really realize the importance of emotional management for teachers and a future teacher like me.

it is not easy to be patient but as a teacher you have no other choice other than to keep telling to yourself to be patient. avoid harsh words. smile always and do not bring your problems into the classroom. learning the theory and putting it into practical are two different areas of learning as you will only realize the importance of it after you have experienced it, just like me.

i just prefer to cover on my area of job. i mean the state of emotional stress on my part as a future teacher and a trainee teacher. i have encountered lots of opinions from different people from different area of career. some said..hello, teacher??stress apa..blaja relax? really? i prefer to say no. I have my own stress because i can't stand being treated like a secondary school student and sometimes a primary school student when I am now has reached my matured age. ohohoho. sensitive. i should stop before i go deep into my sad story. nope, i'm not being ungrateful but i believe, every single human has their own thoughts, hopes and aims in life. =)

so, lets back to the real discussion.
 i just wanna stress the importance of emotional control in creating a conducive classroom. i have experienced the kuciwa when the teachers scold us for nothing. bring their problems into the classroom. use the teaching and learning periods for nagging on things that is not related to education. ahahah. i am a soon to be teacher and what kind of teacher do you want for your kids to have a fun learning.

read between the lines.
i am not sure whether i can really be a good teacher in the future. dealing with people is not an easy task i should say. empathy is the second challenging task. ohohoho. it suddenly comes across my mind. may Allah ease this journey. bak kata mak, In whatever path you walk , just do your best.

a qualm

salam,


'Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.'


Patience is not only genius, it is power.


Patience is a virtue and a key to success.


those wisdom phrases appear on my lappy screen and make me thinking. i just can't wait for this semester to end. ohoho. (read: i'm on a terrible stress). that's the answer for abandoning this blog. i've lots of  works to do.i need patient. who says, the journey to be a teacher is easy.come to me, let me tell you a real fact.




 just now, my lecturer tells us a universally agreed secret. we thicker your file, the more marks you will gain. what a waste. i hate Malaysian education system. 


they make us do our file. they call it educational file. what's inside. tonnes of unread notes, reflections, isl (individual self learning task) and tutorial notes. what makes me feel 'it is a waste' is we are not learning anything from it. we are collaborating doing the isl tasks. some lecturers give us the isl tasks late and make us do the tasks for the sake of MQA. what a waste. when it comes to reflection, i can't deny my fault. i should start doing all that early ever since my lecturer finished cover a topic. the only thing i wanna stress here is i dun feel like a university student. doing things for the sake of MQA. i think, KPM should revise their syllabus for us, the trainee teaches. give something that is valuable for our future. let us do research just like the real university students. stop giving us last minute work and make us complete our file for the sake of MQA. MQA is an organization that is responsible for accreditation. bak kata my lecturers, without the MQA's consent, you'll never graduate. 


pity us!!pity me!i'm a concerned student (i think so). let things like that happen to me but i dun want my future generation to endure the weaknesses of our education system. burning my midnight oil for the sake of a piece of certificate.no way!!i want something. stay up till late at night for the sake of three inches files. doing sixteen reflections in rushing. download as much articles as you can and print it. happy with the thick file. pity the trees. we should use the papers for something educational and not just for showing of.. "hello! i've a thick file.. i deserve more marks." i'm criticizing yet i'm still doing it. i've no choice. that's not a dynamic way of learning. then only i really realize, what is the lack in our educational system.

impressed

demam 200 ringgit

salam,

sakit itu kifarah dosa..

PENANG;- First time after almost two years of free from any viral infection, syahira telah diserang. =(
she's now down with fever, flu, cough, dizziness, loyaness, n all but she still needs to face her 14' inch gadget due to the never ending reflections and assignments. may Allah preserve her.shafakillah syahira.

p/s: yesterday, she went for a marathon to finish all 200 ringgit in one shot though she was not in a pink of health. ish2. thanks government. thanks mak cik pak cik abang kakak yang bayar cukai tu. terima kasih bagi duit dekat kami untuk beli buku. =). Semoga ilmu daripada buku-buku tersebut bermanfaat di dunia dan di akhirat.

kata hati

salam,

perihal anak didik era kini..

geng cilik: kenapa belajar bahasa inggeris. sekarang waktu agama.

cikgu muda: sebab cikgu TEACHER.

geng cilik: ok.

cikgu muda: simpan buku. tengok teacher. i'm going to speak ENGLISH.

geng cilik: kami xfaham apa cikgu

cikgu muda: U can ask me anything and you can stop me if you could not catch up.....

geng cilik: nganga luas (mimik muka: cikgu ni xfaham bahasa ka)

cikgu muda: cuak tak terkata..err, xpela..cikgu cakap bahasa kita+bahasa INGGERIS ye.

situasi: pre-reading part

cikgu muda: bagus ahmad.tengok yang lain, macam ni la yang cikgu nak.

ali: malas la nak buat.

cikgu muda: kenapa pulak tak nak buat?

siti: dia memang macam tu cikgu, xboleh salah. kena puji ja. dia anak bongsu. manja.

cikgu muda: sudah...pening

situasi: production part

cikgu muda: Ali kamu masuk kumpulan D ye.

Ali: xmau.

cikgu muda: Ali pun pandai macam yang lain. tapi cikgu nak awak buat kerja sama-sama dengan kawan kamu. lagi bertambah pandai

Ali: saya nak lukis sorang-sorang

Siti: dia memang macam tu cikgu..mengada

cikgu muda: kalau macam tu kamu sekupulan dengan Abu. berdua je. jangan marah kalau lukisan kumpulan lain cantik sebab lagi ramai ahli lagi banyak idea.

Ali: saya pandai lukis.

cikgu muda: adehhh

geng cilik: kami nak macam dia jugak cikgu

cikgu muda: (tensen) xboleh..sapa cikgu sekarang. buat kerja kamu..haaaaa. (taring dah keluar)

situasi: loceng berbunyi

geng cilik: cikgu masuk lagi tau kelas kami nanti.

cikgu muda: (hilang sikit geram+sakit tekak)

Respon: kadang rasa nak tukar kerjaya. memang cinta sudah mula berputik namun sabar masih belum tebal. bila terduga mula hilang kemanusiaan. nak cepuk pun ada tapi anak orang.(ni baru seminggu di sekolah). belum masuk alam sebenar. wahai anak didik dimasa hadapan!!!jangan suka melawan. cikgu rasa nak rotan sat lagi. wahai guru!!! sabar dan sabar dan sabar.