sudah cukup cukup berani....

salam,

I, now can drive.

i feel free like a bird flying over mountains

federal road je pun. .errkkk..

it takes years to master.

lepas ni buleh bawak lori.

bulan sepuluh memang banyak kenangan.
nanti bila dah tua, iA kalau sempat menua..
boleh cerita dekat anak cucu..
oktober penuh sejarah

nenek/ummi/mak/mummy/cikgu/kakak/mak cik/ nyang
pandai drift bulan sepuluh
tuuutttt bulan sepuluh
teeetttt bulan sepuluh
mungkinkah akan berkahwin bulan sepuluh???
aip..dush2.panggg. gedebushhh
teaser =P

what a significant month.=)

teringat pesanan geng bulatanoverjoy
kalau nak apa-apa
niat kena betul dulu

contoh:
nak berani drive..
kenapa????
sebab boleh jadi supir abuya ke..
kalau niat nak pegi berjimba..
susah sikit nak boleh

terbukti pun..sangat terbukti..
dulu-dulu,
lepas dapat lesen..selalu dok teringat..lepas ni boleh p makan McD, KFC dengan adik.
tak payah ajak kakak kakaku yang asyik nak duduk rumah je
dua tahun punya dok kumpul berani..
tak berani jugak

sekarang dah boleh!!!
alhamdulillah.
sebab baru pandai drive ala2 drift
seronok sangat nak balik rumah.
nak drive!
maklumla baru pandai....
ibarat toddler baru dapat kaki la.

till then, salam

Pulau Aman

salam,

it was last sunday trip. a short trip. last minute planning. as usual. unplanned trip.  tak surprise sangatlah coz i knew that they would be coming to visit me tapi tk sangk nak pegi pulau pulaks.

the place was just near to my college. it took less than 15 minutes to arrive at the jetty. from the jetty, we took a boat and it cost only 6 ringgit per person ( to and fro).

it took less than 10 minutes journey by boat and yeehaaa!!!!! for the first time in my whole life..hoolaaa Pulau Aman. It was my first trip to Pulu Aman. For the rest of my life, I couldn't ever imagine that there would be a small island like that. maklumla! jarang jalan dekat pulau. there's nothing to be fascinated except the breathtaking scenery and the marvelous and super delicious mee udang. memang delicious even we didn't get the opportunity to try the famous mee udang in Pulau Aman. it's already late and the shop had already closed at three.

xpela, next time, mak kata nak datang lagi bawak tok..hihihihi. it's a small village. took only a few hours to round around the small village. there's a small school with very few number of students. according to my sister, last year, there was one of the UPSR candidates from that school got straight As. hebat kan!

while we were walking to the north of the village, we found a group of tourist who was busily digging a few holes and picked and threw something. we walked closer and surprisingly saw a plastic fulled of remis. they taught us how to dig and find it and excitedly we tried. we were not just trying for fun but we decided to collect till the plastic bag was fulled with remis. habisla species remis di tangan kami.

that's the ending of our short, simple and sweet journey to Pulau Aman.

very few pictures taken. that's the signal of we'll pay a visit again next time.

=). best sangat. alhamdulillah.

the one who dares not to dream big.

salam,

but still a big dreamer

met my lecturer just now and she said " do you wanna look at your assignments?". we nervously replied "yeah, opkos la nak"

when i first looked at my marks, i stopped for a while and turned to her. " why i got this mark?". she answered " you don't put any reference, how can i give you more" okay. no doubt.

the end.

she started her motherly babbling. you could be better. you should share with your friends. sometimes, i just wondered what have you learnt during your primary and secondary school? what makes you now? those were not rare. they often asked us. i think, when my time comes, i'll ask my students the same questions too.

too often we replied, we learned to memorize essay when we were in primary as well as in secondary. we never got a chance to love English. Some said, i think, those who did excellently in English during their school years were naturally good in English. hurm..this statement is being unfair to the English teachers out there.

my lecturer often said, our schooling system made us think English is a foreign language.this statement is always true.

before our conversation ended, she asked us to share with our friends, "what's your turning point to love English?"

..............

i can feel the urge in me to share coz i've such experience. i've experienced the turning point that makes who I am now. being me, the one who is still sad with the previous years and memories that bring me here. my only answer is the triple one nine .

it was three years ago when i really realized the importance of English in my life. if i ever have a chance, i would love to try to forget those memories. can i start it over again?can i do it over again so that i can hit my hopes and ambitions. i'm a very ambitious lady. i'm a big dreamer. i love dreaming. i wanna be somebody. i wanna be a law practitioner. i wanna rule the world.eyh2, tokleh2. human can't rule this world. since i was in secondary school, i had had a dream of living a life of my dream. the dreams left untouchable.

i cried when a few friends of mine told me that they had to attend for interviews. that was my dream.

the conclusion is "I've had the experience of heartbroken". i hate that feeling.

i still remember when my sister phoned me and she said "jangan sedih tau, hang xdapat pun k.da rasa". my hopes and dreams broke into pieces. i was not crying but deep inside me i hate myself. from that on, i dared not to dream big.

today, i know and i realise why the sponsorships dare not to waste their money for me.

how come they would easily spend their money to someone who gets C band in triple one nine.

looks, how English makes your life different.

i do believe in fate but there's always a reason why it happens.

sedih tak entri ni?hihihi

but i wont' give up. i'm going to rule my students. it has been 3 years since I call myself teacher. It has been 3 years since everywhere I go, people will call me 'cikgu'. hahaha. i just don't know what makes them call me teacher. not even once i wear name tag when i'm outside of school compound.

English is fun..

pengsan!!!

me, =)

one thing

salam,

i've been wanting to blog this for so long but it happens to be today is the day.

I've tried playing it cool

But when I'm looking at you

I can't ever be brave

'Cause you make my heart race

p/s:over kan. i know it. i'm overjoyed. coz i have that one thing. 

=)

salam,

i was reading an online tabloid last night when i bumped to the 2013 budget. i went through one by one passionately. the whats and the never ending whys kept popping out from the inner side of me. huhuhu.



 mak uya!!i've grown up. now i know what does politics and money mean?


p/s: i'm 21 and i love free money but i don't know why do they decide to waste such amount of money for us for free.

looking at it in a positive way:
1)boleh masuk tabung haji -50
2)boleh buat braces -50
3)simpan buat kahwin nanti2..(dush2)-50
4)beli kereta-50
5)asnb-50

looking at it in a futuristic way:
1) gov should save the money for the unseen needs in the future

for now, that's my only qualm.

girls talk and ala-ala advice

salam,

isu 1: kahwin

it was a normal chit chatting when suddenly, a friend of mine who is very very soon going to get married came and joined us.

A: berseri serinya (xtipu!!!!..memang berseri)
B: (merah muka)
C: dh ready ke semua?
B: ntahl. not that easy.
C: pening kepala x?
B: opkos
A: mana cari  duit nak kahwin ni?
B: simpan
C: is it enough?
B: nope. so many things to do.
C: how about the ...............(curious)

its normal to have the curiosity. normal for kids like us. haha. she has gone one step further and maju from us. seriously! she looks matured. marriage makes us matured? or the ups and downs of planning to get married makes my friend looks matured. huhu. there comes the curiosity. oh well! its pretty normal for those who has not been into that stage to start thinking of that wasting of time questions.

having a conversation with the one who's getting married makes me realize of something and it opens my eyes. i should stop dreaming of getting married at this age lah. its not easy to make the decision to get married. the preparation is far more not easy. the engagement period is the most difficult test ever in life.

marriage does not only need us to have a stable income but also a stable state of thinking.
 a matured thinking. a complex thinking. the ability to think critically and wisely. the ability to walk in the spouse's shoes. the ability to accept advice. the ability to always be patient.the ability to control emotions when the money is getting lesser and lesser dalam bank coz everything is not cheap these days unless it happens to be you get a stable partner. oopppsss, i nearly forget this one. the ability to cook. haha. this is the most highlighted issue in our conversation. do you know how to cook? yupp. tapi makanan kampung je. that's what my friend replied. we replied " xpela, kami nak pi kelas memasak dulu la before thinking about marriage".

i personally think, marriage is not all about happiness. its all about a roller coaster life. some said "kalau nak tunggu ready sampai bila-bila pun xready". hurm. that's also correct. but, the time will come, when the time come, we will not no longer think about the readiness coz at that time, we'll be naturally ready. just like my friend. chayok2x

marriage is a very big issue now. here and there, everyone's talking about that here and there. except me lah..hahah. knowing the reality makes me feel like " i wanna stop growing for a while and enjoy my teenage life"....dolu-dolu, masa sekolah menengah, the main issue is "what field would you like to choose?"

dear syahira,
"read this post if you feel envy+jelous tengok sorang-sorang kawan kahwin" =D

tanggungjawab

salam,

oh no! this love has taken me here. i always love to write but being somebody who rarely spends my time reading nowadays makes me feel empty. i have no ideas what to write other than sharing about my life and experiences. hurmph. lagha kan.  don't ask me why i rarely spending my time reading nowadays. my only answer will be 'saya malas' and 'xde feeling nak membaca'. the only thing I do most of everyday is reading articles and online newspaper. xtau la kenapa malas sangat nak buka buku dan baca. maybe, i need a kindle. hahaha..not soo related. sometimes, when I really need to read ( homework or usrah task), then only I will do the reading. tu pun setengah jam. i prefer to listen than to read. memang xsuka sungguh sungguh. pelik jugak. it's so sudden. few months ago, reading has been my only activity and rela stay up demi sebuah buku. sekarang, letak kepala. fengsan. human changed. so do I.

.............................

let's talk about responsibilities la. this ws one of my usrah task last week.

 my naqibah asked us to draw our responsibilities on an A4 paper. being me, the one who had no skill in drawing, i preferred to write.

imagine..how could I draw the responsibilities. talking about responsibilities, it was uncountable and difficult to transfer into words or even pictures. that's what i felt. i took some time to think before i could come out with a long list of responsibilities. responsibility was not a new term in my life. since I was born, the word had been a good friend to me. that what came out from my mind soon after i began to key in that word into my brain.

dulu dok dalam perut dah janji dah sebelum keluar..kan?
keluar je. besar sikit. janji nak p tadika..nak belajar rajin2. xmo kacau cikgu. xmau buat bising. besar lagi sikit. pi sekolah rendah..janji dengan mak ayah nak belajar super rajin..nak dapat 5A. besar lagi lagi sikit. janji nak dalam 9A. besar lagi lagi lagi sikit. nak dapat 11A. tak campur lagi..janji dengan ustazah nak solat cukup. janji dengan kawan. janji sana janji sini.
(ni dari sudut yang biasa2)

dari sudut yang formal

1)tanggungjawab kepada pencipta
2)tanggungjawab kepada agama
3)tanggungjawab kepada ibu bapa
4)tanggungjawab sebagai penerus kegemilangan islam
5)tanggungjawab sebagai pelajar
6)tanggungjawab terhadap kitab suci Al-Quranul Kareem.
7)......................

the list went on and on and it would never stop until the day of .........

when it was my time to present, I was quite reluctant and I didn't know where to start. It was sooo much. but it made me realize something. tanggungjawab-tanggungjawab itu menjadikan siapa kita hari ini. those responsibilities built us to be somebody.

regards,
me