assalamualaikum,
Next Tuesday marks my 6 month of working episodes. I have nothing much to say coz i'm still new in this field. But, today, someone crossed my level of patience. It is normal for school in Malaysia to conduct activities such as solat hajat and etc during weekends. Let me tell you my respond, I hate!!!!
Since, I was posted to a semi- urban school which is located approximately 20 km from the heart of Johor Bahru, the demands to conduct activities during weekends were quite high. See the correlation? hahahaha. Nope!
Last Friday night, my school condcted solat hajat for the year 6 pupils. Everyone was invited and teachers are made compulsory to attend. Many of us could not turn up. Well!! It's a long weekend and most of us were going back to hometown or going somewhere. It's pay week.. So, please expect that people were not going to stay at home just like the rest of weeks. I didn't turn up because of a personal reason which prohibited me from going there.
To my surprise, when we were eating at the canteen, someone mentioned our names loudly in front of boss. fuhhh!! I found it intimidating. That's not the best way to correct us. She mentioned about new teachers. We might be new but we we're not blunt and stupid.
So, today, I welcomed myself to the real world of working like. The haters are everywhere. There are good people but the haters are always waiting for the right time to pint point our faults.
Parasite.
xo
Monday, 31 August 2015
Friday, 28 August 2015
respect.
Assalamualaikum,
I'm a loner this whole weekend. Both of my housemates went back to their hometown leaving me. hahahaha. Don't ask about how it feels being alone. Mixed. hahahahaha.
Back in track, I'd been doing extra job since my fourth month in Johor. My first intention was because of money. I should say the pay is quite high depending on how much you put effort to accept jobs. Since I started teaching in tuition centers around Bukit Indah and at home, I had no time for myself. No weekend for me. While waiting for the next class, I usually took the opportunity to go to the nearest shopping complex, Aeon Bukit Indah. I walked a bit, ate my favourite food and performed prayer. That's all. This won't last long. I planned to quit once I get married. Friday...Saturday and the chores kept on repeating.
One thing that made me feel worth taking up the extra job was I taught secondary school science subject. It made feel rejuvenated. It's a new challenge for me. I took up the challenge in hoping that I would also be able to learn new things. I did. I had choice other than to take the revision book home and do revision as well. English is my cup of tea but Science is now my passion. I even taught year 1,2,5 and 6 Science. What a beautiful way to keep my brain alive.
This afternoon, I taught four Form 1 students Science. One of them were very clever that he tried to manipulate me. I wonder why the children these days had so much guts to go against their teacher. He really anted to have quiz that he kept on voicing out his idea. Fuhhh, I was so tired coz I was a tuition in the afternoon. I told him that his actions successfully challenge my level of patience. Once again he shouted, I would ask the headmistress to put him into another class. My boy! He pouted throughout the class until I decided that "We'll have a quiz now!!!! '. Kids these days. They really wanted us to listen to their voice no matter what! Fuhhh.
How to train a dragon/ a child in this challenging era? How to instill the moral values as highlighted in the Holy Quran and even in the syllabus in our children?
fuhh. lap peluh.
xo,
I'm a loner this whole weekend. Both of my housemates went back to their hometown leaving me. hahahaha. Don't ask about how it feels being alone. Mixed. hahahahaha.
Back in track, I'd been doing extra job since my fourth month in Johor. My first intention was because of money. I should say the pay is quite high depending on how much you put effort to accept jobs. Since I started teaching in tuition centers around Bukit Indah and at home, I had no time for myself. No weekend for me. While waiting for the next class, I usually took the opportunity to go to the nearest shopping complex, Aeon Bukit Indah. I walked a bit, ate my favourite food and performed prayer. That's all. This won't last long. I planned to quit once I get married. Friday...Saturday and the chores kept on repeating.
One thing that made me feel worth taking up the extra job was I taught secondary school science subject. It made feel rejuvenated. It's a new challenge for me. I took up the challenge in hoping that I would also be able to learn new things. I did. I had choice other than to take the revision book home and do revision as well. English is my cup of tea but Science is now my passion. I even taught year 1,2,5 and 6 Science. What a beautiful way to keep my brain alive.
This afternoon, I taught four Form 1 students Science. One of them were very clever that he tried to manipulate me. I wonder why the children these days had so much guts to go against their teacher. He really anted to have quiz that he kept on voicing out his idea. Fuhhh, I was so tired coz I was a tuition in the afternoon. I told him that his actions successfully challenge my level of patience. Once again he shouted, I would ask the headmistress to put him into another class. My boy! He pouted throughout the class until I decided that "We'll have a quiz now!!!! '. Kids these days. They really wanted us to listen to their voice no matter what! Fuhhh.
How to train a dragon/ a child in this challenging era? How to instill the moral values as highlighted in the Holy Quran and even in the syllabus in our children?
fuhh. lap peluh.
xo,
We're going down a bumpy road
Assalamualaikum,
While browsing through the solemnization and wedding attire, something came across my mind. What actually we want from our marriage.....
Before marriage....
While browsing through the solemnization and wedding attire, something came across my mind. What actually we want from our marriage.....
Before marriage....
- I need a guardian and someone who will ensure than I'm not gonna be alone for the rest of my life.
- I need someone who loves me beyond words and things.
- I want a man who will show me the real meaning of life.
- I want someone who will make me feel love and always there in every situations.
- I want someone who will drag me closer to the Almighty Allah because in the end, to Him shall we return.
- I don't need someone who will assure that we will be rich and live happily with lots of money and possessions. Enough with someone who will stay loyal and provide us with all the basic needs.
- I want children (10 max)
- I want to follow him to Japan and reside there for a few years.
- I don't want to work for a few years.
- I want to raise my children abroad until they could be multi-languages.
- I want to be a teacher there.
- I have heard about lots of beautiful things from my dearest, so, I want to feel it by myself.
- I want to a cook to my family.
- I want to be with my love. (Sometime, I am just so scared with my decision but he holds a lot of criteria that i wished, so tawakkal)
Lat week, I told my sisters about my plan.One agreed and one threw a question to me. List three reasons why I wanna get married this early. I have a lot in mind. Being human, she'll never get enough even if I manage to list down thousand. So, I chose to let the question remain as a question. I believed, one day, she'd answer the question by herself.
I often read a few posts on facebook about the happiness of their marriage, I tried not to pm them and asked Wh questions.
Tests.....
Mine and theirs.....
are different.
One day,
If Allah gives us a chance to become parents...
I will try not to delay marriage for my future kids.
It's a sunnah to protect you from ZINA...
No one can decide and ensure who will sail through their marriage till the end of their lives.
Except one, The Almighty Allah.
No one can ensure the long lasting happiness, sakinah, mawaddah and rahmah
even if they are married to a guy from a rich family or a guy with a stable job, or a guy with two houses and one luxury car, or a guy who hold the best position at a top oil& gas company or a guy who works as a servant to government.
No one!
Except Allah s.w.t.....
It's Friday...
xo,
Miss Syahira
Monday, 24 August 2015
Karnival Perpaduan Bahasa Inggeris Peringkat Kebangsaan.
Assalamualaikum,
It's my first tiMe experiencing it, so, I shall save the memories somewhere.
I got the letter on Wednesday. On Tuesday, I was not at school the whole day since I brought pupils to a state level competition which was held at SMK Medini, Nusajaya. We brought no medals home. I felt bad coz we didn't really work that hard to aim any medals.
On Saturday night, I kept on worrying whether I should be there or not since no one briefed me about that event. I didn't even know where was UTM because the last time I was there was a few months back. We went at night to join the crowd at Pesta Konvo.
On Sunday, after school, I asked a permission from my boss to go back early. According to the schedule, I must be there at 2pm. I should be the emcee for Poetry Recitation Competition. I arrived 5 minutes late since I spend few hours to find out the place. I hate. what a huge place! I hate.
As I arrived, I straightly walked up to the room which was located at the first floor, Dewan Seri Iskandar (DSI). There's a man replacing my place. I was so tired I felt like crying. I came all the way from school. Actually, I should be there since Sunday night but no one told me that. I didn't even get a phone call from PPD. I was the youngest and all the committee members were very experienced. shame on me. Was that one of the bittersweet moments to become experienced? I had to work with a JU who said she's now counting months, days , hour and minutes to retire. She opted for early retirement (55 y.o). The moment she said so, I had no guts to complain about my work. They had gone through so much. The bittersweets in the this profession. Little that she knows, If my husband could afford me someday, I want to quit my job. I hate. All these while, I hate no passion in teaching. Pity my babies. They needed a better teacher just like I had, few years back.
I just waited for the competition to finish. The finished earlier and I rushed to the persons in charged and asked them about anything that I could help. I was like the outsiders, I knew nothing and no one was there to guide me. Everyone was so busy walking around and gossiping with their members. I hate!!!!
Finally,One of the person in charged told me to turn up that night to help them sorting out a few things. I was like...okay!!! i'll come. Luckily, they gave me a task to do. I needed to usher the contestants to the quarantine room. I felt relieved. At least, I had a task to do. I did my work. I brought the school name, so, I just needed to show off a bit. hahahaha. The competition finished at 12 midnight. cried. I travelled back from Skudai to Gelang Patah alone. That was a serious deal. I wished they never select me again next time. tak redhaaaa!!
On Monday morning, I turned up a bit late. We had nothing to do. I asked a few seniors. They said just sit down and relax. I walked around to collect all the free books given out to teachers. hahahaha
waited for the winning and losing ceremony. called it off at around 1pm. All the contingents from 16 states made their way home. Do come again to Johor once I leave this state, okay? deal.
:)
It's my first tiMe experiencing it, so, I shall save the memories somewhere.
I got the letter on Wednesday. On Tuesday, I was not at school the whole day since I brought pupils to a state level competition which was held at SMK Medini, Nusajaya. We brought no medals home. I felt bad coz we didn't really work that hard to aim any medals.
On Saturday night, I kept on worrying whether I should be there or not since no one briefed me about that event. I didn't even know where was UTM because the last time I was there was a few months back. We went at night to join the crowd at Pesta Konvo.
On Sunday, after school, I asked a permission from my boss to go back early. According to the schedule, I must be there at 2pm. I should be the emcee for Poetry Recitation Competition. I arrived 5 minutes late since I spend few hours to find out the place. I hate. what a huge place! I hate.
As I arrived, I straightly walked up to the room which was located at the first floor, Dewan Seri Iskandar (DSI). There's a man replacing my place. I was so tired I felt like crying. I came all the way from school. Actually, I should be there since Sunday night but no one told me that. I didn't even get a phone call from PPD. I was the youngest and all the committee members were very experienced. shame on me. Was that one of the bittersweet moments to become experienced? I had to work with a JU who said she's now counting months, days , hour and minutes to retire. She opted for early retirement (55 y.o). The moment she said so, I had no guts to complain about my work. They had gone through so much. The bittersweets in the this profession. Little that she knows, If my husband could afford me someday, I want to quit my job. I hate. All these while, I hate no passion in teaching. Pity my babies. They needed a better teacher just like I had, few years back.
I just waited for the competition to finish. The finished earlier and I rushed to the persons in charged and asked them about anything that I could help. I was like the outsiders, I knew nothing and no one was there to guide me. Everyone was so busy walking around and gossiping with their members. I hate!!!!
Finally,One of the person in charged told me to turn up that night to help them sorting out a few things. I was like...okay!!! i'll come. Luckily, they gave me a task to do. I needed to usher the contestants to the quarantine room. I felt relieved. At least, I had a task to do. I did my work. I brought the school name, so, I just needed to show off a bit. hahahaha. The competition finished at 12 midnight. cried. I travelled back from Skudai to Gelang Patah alone. That was a serious deal. I wished they never select me again next time. tak redhaaaa!!
On Monday morning, I turned up a bit late. We had nothing to do. I asked a few seniors. They said just sit down and relax. I walked around to collect all the free books given out to teachers. hahahaha
waited for the winning and losing ceremony. called it off at around 1pm. All the contingents from 16 states made their way home. Do come again to Johor once I leave this state, okay? deal.
:)
Saturday, 22 August 2015
pre-wedding part 1
assalamualaikum,
It was last week on Wednesday (19th August 2015), when F told me this idea. Let's get married. I stumbled upon the idea but deep inside, I was happy.
We're beyond compulsory to get maaried. We're close to 8 years of falling in love this coming December. I was afraid but marrying my sweetheart would be the happiest thing in my whole life.
Some people were against us because they said we're still young. yesss, 24 is young for them. But, both of us knew our duties already. We wanted more than "having intimate relationship". We always prayed for an eternal love in times of happiness, sadness, craziness and etc. There a quote that kept on popping up on my mind these past few days. If you wanted to live without risk, you can stay in love without nikah. Nikah may not promise a happy ending but if there's sabr, we'll cruise through it till the end of our lives.
Fahmi could not be like my sisters. He might not be able to be with me throughout all these years when I received bad results, when I was sick or when I had no enough money. But, he could do more than my siblings could ever do once we are married.
We might not be able to fulfill everyone's dreams. But, we'll try to. If not today, one day, we will do whatever we have promised.
It was last week on Wednesday (19th August 2015), when F told me this idea. Let's get married. I stumbled upon the idea but deep inside, I was happy.
We're beyond compulsory to get maaried. We're close to 8 years of falling in love this coming December. I was afraid but marrying my sweetheart would be the happiest thing in my whole life.
Some people were against us because they said we're still young. yesss, 24 is young for them. But, both of us knew our duties already. We wanted more than "having intimate relationship". We always prayed for an eternal love in times of happiness, sadness, craziness and etc. There a quote that kept on popping up on my mind these past few days. If you wanted to live without risk, you can stay in love without nikah. Nikah may not promise a happy ending but if there's sabr, we'll cruise through it till the end of our lives.
Fahmi could not be like my sisters. He might not be able to be with me throughout all these years when I received bad results, when I was sick or when I had no enough money. But, he could do more than my siblings could ever do once we are married.
We might not be able to fulfill everyone's dreams. But, we'll try to. If not today, one day, we will do whatever we have promised.
Tuesday, 18 August 2015
GRADUATED
Assalamualaikum,
Surprisingly, I could only write at night. All the ideas poured out like a heavy rain after a long summer.
Last June, I attended my graduation ceremony which was held at IPG Kampus Bahasa Melayu which also known as IPBM. After 5 and a half year of studying, I finally got the opportunity to wear my own graduation robe and hold a bouquet of flowers. Let me break a secret, I bought the bouquet for myself for the sake of nice graduation pictures.
Deep in my heart, I really hoped that someone so close to me would buy a bouquet of roses for me as I walked out the graduation hall. Dream remained as a dream. Let it goooooo!!!! I had no plan to further in master's degree since I just think that I had had enough.
I had no passion in teaching as much as I had no passion to entertain my pupils and to prepare teaching aids. LOL.
I had started doing extra money on the fourth month of working. I held a can on my right hand and taught English. I felt contented coz the pupils really learnt the lesson. They did their work with a good manner. That's my passion. Teaching...not multi-tasking.
Apart from that, I wished to see F's face on my graduation day. It was unfair for my parents and family members if I said, he's one of the catalyst for me to finish up my degree. hahahah. My source of strength apart from my family members.
Ironically, he was thousand miles far away from this land.
Congratulations to me!!!!!!
Surprisingly, I could only write at night. All the ideas poured out like a heavy rain after a long summer.
Last June, I attended my graduation ceremony which was held at IPG Kampus Bahasa Melayu which also known as IPBM. After 5 and a half year of studying, I finally got the opportunity to wear my own graduation robe and hold a bouquet of flowers. Let me break a secret, I bought the bouquet for myself for the sake of nice graduation pictures.
Deep in my heart, I really hoped that someone so close to me would buy a bouquet of roses for me as I walked out the graduation hall. Dream remained as a dream. Let it goooooo!!!! I had no plan to further in master's degree since I just think that I had had enough.
I had no passion in teaching as much as I had no passion to entertain my pupils and to prepare teaching aids. LOL.
I had started doing extra money on the fourth month of working. I held a can on my right hand and taught English. I felt contented coz the pupils really learnt the lesson. They did their work with a good manner. That's my passion. Teaching...not multi-tasking.
Apart from that, I wished to see F's face on my graduation day. It was unfair for my parents and family members if I said, he's one of the catalyst for me to finish up my degree. hahahah. My source of strength apart from my family members.
Ironically, he was thousand miles far away from this land.
Congratulations to me!!!!!!
xoxo
Monday, 17 August 2015
our first house
assalamualaikum,
Right now, I realized why people often said savor each and every moment while you've no commitment. My current commitment is my future. When I am alone in my room, I keep on thinking about my life. What would happen if I do this and that? I shall stop for a moment and think about my ibadah once.
Dear my future children,
All of you should know that we planned to buy a house this year. The decision had been made. At first, we decided to buy a house somewhere near to my workplace in Gelang Patah, JohorBahru. I'd done some research and drove 20 km distance from my home just to find the suitable places to buy a house. I came home with a very bad headache. I was not good at making a decision. F kept on saying I should work hard for this but being woman, I'd had so much in my mind. One day, we're going to move to Japan and who will take care of our house during that period of time?
On Sunday night, I felt overwhelmed and I cried and I decided to throw tantrums. Luckily, your future father was very smart and cool. He told me to stop for a moment and left everything to him for this time being.
House hunting was a serious deal. Imagined, we would spend a quite big amount of money for a house. It won't be a comfortable house since our budget was very limited. We decided to go for a house ranging from 100k to 200k only since both of us has just started working. It's gonna be a god investment for our future little family.
Right now, We have short-listed a few houses in Sungai Petani. I really hope that the house will be ours. Our first house. Our first experience. Our first big decision. Our first investment. May Allah grant us patient and guide us through it.
Hurmmm, we actually had a very limited amount of money but we decided to just take the risk. We believed that It'll be a great start for us in this field; property investment.
Our journey was not as easy as we always imagined. We started from zero. We fell in love 7 years ago and we had to find our own pocket money for wedding. The decision of buying a house was actually a stepping stone to our big day. One day, we'll surely tell all of you. Don't worry, we'll set a good foundation for all of you and my kids won't have to endure the hardships we faced again.
Oppps, I have another one week for house hunting. Wish me all the best!!!! See you in a couple of years or maybe next year......
love,
me.
Right now, I realized why people often said savor each and every moment while you've no commitment. My current commitment is my future. When I am alone in my room, I keep on thinking about my life. What would happen if I do this and that? I shall stop for a moment and think about my ibadah once.
Dear my future children,
All of you should know that we planned to buy a house this year. The decision had been made. At first, we decided to buy a house somewhere near to my workplace in Gelang Patah, JohorBahru. I'd done some research and drove 20 km distance from my home just to find the suitable places to buy a house. I came home with a very bad headache. I was not good at making a decision. F kept on saying I should work hard for this but being woman, I'd had so much in my mind. One day, we're going to move to Japan and who will take care of our house during that period of time?
On Sunday night, I felt overwhelmed and I cried and I decided to throw tantrums. Luckily, your future father was very smart and cool. He told me to stop for a moment and left everything to him for this time being.
House hunting was a serious deal. Imagined, we would spend a quite big amount of money for a house. It won't be a comfortable house since our budget was very limited. We decided to go for a house ranging from 100k to 200k only since both of us has just started working. It's gonna be a god investment for our future little family.
Right now, We have short-listed a few houses in Sungai Petani. I really hope that the house will be ours. Our first house. Our first experience. Our first big decision. Our first investment. May Allah grant us patient and guide us through it.
Hurmmm, we actually had a very limited amount of money but we decided to just take the risk. We believed that It'll be a great start for us in this field; property investment.
Our journey was not as easy as we always imagined. We started from zero. We fell in love 7 years ago and we had to find our own pocket money for wedding. The decision of buying a house was actually a stepping stone to our big day. One day, we'll surely tell all of you. Don't worry, we'll set a good foundation for all of you and my kids won't have to endure the hardships we faced again.
Oppps, I have another one week for house hunting. Wish me all the best!!!! See you in a couple of years or maybe next year......
love,
me.
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